hehe...
final dream...
^^
dunno y my hp cannot on ady...
i not going to care anymore...
definitely will buy a NEW one...
no matter wat!!!
will not let my parents stop me anymore....
but now ar...
finally can buy....
but dunno which hp to buy...
wat is the latest ar??
any model also can...
i wan camera above 3.0 megapixel ^^
and can listen to songs de...
budget RM1000
max RM1200
hehe
any suggestions???
or got any website..???
pls gv me some suggestions....
thx thx!! ^^
(Diana) <3
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Take it as it is, move on with it, live with it....
nth can change wat has alr done....
just like words u said....
once it is out frm ur mouth....
there is no return...
watever u said....
hurtful or not...
the person u said to...
will rmb or not....
they will just hav to take it .....
no matter they are prepare or not...
ppl can just said it all out....
not thinking wat tht person will feel...
is a courage to do so....
but the consequences...
is far bigger to take it...
u either lose this fren...
or maybe this fren still can remain frens...
but this thing u had said...
will always be in their heart...
it cant be erase easily...
not easily enough ...
tht it can be done overnight....
often we hav to careful with wat we speak....
said it all out...
does not places u hav the right to do so...
or does not places u tht u just do it ur way...
or does not make u a hero....
those who do not agree with me ....
NVM...
this is not important at all...
sharing wat i feel...
does not mean i am rite ....
diff ppl diff thinking...
everyone has a rite to voice out...
u u u u u ....
all of u....
has equal rites....
adios !!
(Diana) <3
just like words u said....
once it is out frm ur mouth....
there is no return...
watever u said....
hurtful or not...
the person u said to...
will rmb or not....
they will just hav to take it .....
no matter they are prepare or not...
ppl can just said it all out....
not thinking wat tht person will feel...
is a courage to do so....
but the consequences...
is far bigger to take it...
u either lose this fren...
or maybe this fren still can remain frens...
but this thing u had said...
will always be in their heart...
it cant be erase easily...
not easily enough ...
tht it can be done overnight....
often we hav to careful with wat we speak....
said it all out...
does not places u hav the right to do so...
or does not places u tht u just do it ur way...
or does not make u a hero....
those who do not agree with me ....
NVM...
this is not important at all...
sharing wat i feel...
does not mean i am rite ....
diff ppl diff thinking...
everyone has a rite to voice out...
u u u u u ....
all of u....
has equal rites....
adios !!
(Diana) <3
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Making things Complicated
Stress stress....
everything is not well organized..
going to Dsa is not an enjoyment for me...
especially when times....
where a lot of things have to changed..
n worst still...
n to be done rite away...
ur so called "plan"
will hav be abolished..
as all this always is last minute thing....
so many times...
going there...
change this n tht...
might get scolded for the things u had nth to do with it...
or going there and find out tht..
there is no prob at all..
i mean is like....
a drag for u to go there..
hearing wat u dun like to hear......
change change change...
keep changing until u meet their requirements...
n their requirements is always changing...
this moment...
wat u do is enough...
but maybe the next day....
wat u done is not enough after all...
but so wat complaining here..
tht is my Job...
my responsibility....
secretary is not an easy one to be after all...
it might seems easy...
copy n paste...
their goes ur new proposal....
but after tht...
all this changes start to come...
it is no fun at all....
(Diana) <3
everything is not well organized..
going to Dsa is not an enjoyment for me...
especially when times....
where a lot of things have to changed..
n worst still...
n to be done rite away...
ur so called "plan"
will hav be abolished..
as all this always is last minute thing....
so many times...
going there...
change this n tht...
might get scolded for the things u had nth to do with it...
or going there and find out tht..
there is no prob at all..
i mean is like....
a drag for u to go there..
hearing wat u dun like to hear......
change change change...
keep changing until u meet their requirements...
n their requirements is always changing...
this moment...
wat u do is enough...
but maybe the next day....
wat u done is not enough after all...
but so wat complaining here..
tht is my Job...
my responsibility....
secretary is not an easy one to be after all...
it might seems easy...
copy n paste...
their goes ur new proposal....
but after tht...
all this changes start to come...
it is no fun at all....
(Diana) <3
Monday, July 28, 2008
Back to a BUSY week
Finally my house in Sg Long...
got internet connection..
at least things can easily be done...
dun need to wrry bout cant contact to the outside world....
so tired....
i slept during the afternoon ady...
n yet..
now i am so so sleepy..
maybe yest nitei slept at 5 sth...
crazy huh...
wat to do...
still insist in watching movie although i am so sleepy ady... @.@
tmr need to do presentation slide...
plus have to handle some CDS stuff...
which now still pending..
all not exactly done yet...
still need to see if anything have to be changed...
wed got presentation....
thurs hav to hand up MIS ass....
which now haven combine and edit yet...
doubtful bout tht...
friday got eng exam...
n if not lucky enough...
might as well hav a play role after the exam itself...
just so much to do...
GAO MIANG AH!!!!
ah lah..
dun care for now..
really so sleepy...
nites everyone
(Diana) <3
got internet connection..
at least things can easily be done...
dun need to wrry bout cant contact to the outside world....
so tired....
i slept during the afternoon ady...
n yet..
now i am so so sleepy..
maybe yest nitei slept at 5 sth...
crazy huh...
wat to do...
still insist in watching movie although i am so sleepy ady... @.@
tmr need to do presentation slide...
plus have to handle some CDS stuff...
which now still pending..
all not exactly done yet...
still need to see if anything have to be changed...
wed got presentation....
thurs hav to hand up MIS ass....
which now haven combine and edit yet...
doubtful bout tht...
friday got eng exam...
n if not lucky enough...
might as well hav a play role after the exam itself...
just so much to do...
GAO MIANG AH!!!!
ah lah..
dun care for now..
really so sleepy...
nites everyone
(Diana) <3
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Late Late Afternoon
Just woke up...
pretty late huh.
usual to me...
until my parents hav nth more to say but shake their "heads"....
sobs...
did some laundry....
thn get myself sth to eat...
but pityfully...
all i got is...
Quaker Oat & Milo....
SOBSS...
n the Quakie...
dunno wat is wrg with it..
it is so gluewy.....
Yucks!!
like eating glue...
sth tells me tht i did sth...
tht make it taste like tht...
so tht is y...
it is set aside....
sigh~~~~~
show u all some pics...
the day i went to Mid Valley..
First Things First, i n my cousin went to Action City, turn this two "Balls" out... a bit childish.. but it is fun fun fun... nvr turn this kind of ball before... so it is sth new to me
Last but not least... me n my cousin <3...thx me=")">u know wat she return me??? she return me RM51.50.... does it make any sense.. i gave her Rm220... she go n type RM270...i was like she did help me to save RM50 eventually....she is just so nice... n thankfully.... she didnt realise tht fast till come n chase me back for the money.... stupid thing she gave me back RM50... clever thing she didnt come chasing me back for the money... srry la.. if i am like working... i dun mind being honest to tell u tht u gave me the wrg amount.. >.<
pretty late huh.
usual to me...
until my parents hav nth more to say but shake their "heads"....
sobs...
did some laundry....
thn get myself sth to eat...
but pityfully...
all i got is...
Quaker Oat & Milo....
SOBSS...
n the Quakie...
dunno wat is wrg with it..
it is so gluewy.....
Yucks!!
like eating glue...
sth tells me tht i did sth...
tht make it taste like tht...
so tht is y...
it is set aside....
sigh~~~~~
show u all some pics...
the day i went to Mid Valley..
First Things First, i n my cousin went to Action City, turn this two "Balls" out... a bit childish.. but it is fun fun fun... nvr turn this kind of ball before... so it is sth new to me
This is the First dress or shirt... dunno wat shud i call it... i bought this at Miss Selfridge.... discount though... but still quite exp.. this cost me RM81.5.... money flies easily.... saw a head down there.. haha... its my cousin which was in the same fitting room with me... =P
Next... went to Metrojaya.... wanted to get some formal clothes... ended saw this dress... which can be formal... but ..... its a bit see through... bought this also in the end.......there goes my money again...but there is a story when i pay for this dress and a formal skirt which i did not took the pic... later on... after all this pic...
Ermm... toilet taking .... in Garden's toilet... @.@
Last but not least... me n my cousin <3...thx me=")">u know wat she return me??? she return me RM51.50.... does it make any sense.. i gave her Rm220... she go n type RM270...i was like she did help me to save RM50 eventually....she is just so nice... n thankfully.... she didnt realise tht fast till come n chase me back for the money.... stupid thing she gave me back RM50... clever thing she didnt come chasing me back for the money... srry la.. if i am like working... i dun mind being honest to tell u tht u gave me the wrg amount.. >.<I bought quite a number of things....
besides the two dress and one skirt... i bought a jeans from Dorothy Perkins.... thn ate branch and dinner tht also cost money... i also bought one nail polish... and the balls which contains Hp chain(dunno izzit called so)...
tht's all i guess....
till the next post...
adios & gracias!! (goodbye and thank you in spanish) =)
(Diana)<3
U are My "EYES"
this is a song...
a mandarin song from a "Blind" man...
just found out the meaning behind this song....
it says...
u r my eyes
i can bring to see everywhere
u r my eyes
i can directly hug u frm where u are
y i could not see
is there a curtain in front of me?
or did god forgot to open it for me?
just this words...
this lyrics
i am so touched...
this guy who wrote this song....
he is not born to blind...
he was blind...
becoz he plays computer too much....
at a young age...
he became blind...
but he did not gv up his life....
he moved on...
move on to a world tht he felt...
always has opportunities...
he appreciate every single thing in life now...
i as a human in this world..
are bless with healthy eyes...
can see this world clearly...
but yet not clearly enough in heart....
his tragedy...
make me think tht...
all the things i am facing now...
is somewhat small as a "Pea".....
y hold on to sth so much...
y treat things like the world will end...
it is alr so lucky for me..
at least i am the healthy one...
你是我的眼-萧煌奇
tribute to this guy... thx for inspiring me...
i glad i heard ur song.... =)
(Diana) <3
a mandarin song from a "Blind" man...
just found out the meaning behind this song....
it says...
u r my eyes
i can bring to see everywhere
u r my eyes
i can directly hug u frm where u are
y i could not see
is there a curtain in front of me?
or did god forgot to open it for me?
just this words...
this lyrics
i am so touched...
this guy who wrote this song....
he is not born to blind...
he was blind...
becoz he plays computer too much....
at a young age...
he became blind...
but he did not gv up his life....
he moved on...
move on to a world tht he felt...
always has opportunities...
he appreciate every single thing in life now...
i as a human in this world..
are bless with healthy eyes...
can see this world clearly...
but yet not clearly enough in heart....
his tragedy...
make me think tht...
all the things i am facing now...
is somewhat small as a "Pea".....
y hold on to sth so much...
y treat things like the world will end...
it is alr so lucky for me..
at least i am the healthy one...
你是我的眼-萧煌奇
tribute to this guy... thx for inspiring me...
i glad i heard ur song.... =)
(Diana) <3
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Everything Happen For A REASON
was just watching "Gossip Girls"
nvr knew tht just by watching series like this....
will teach me sth...
all the Conflict...
every scene happen for a Reason....
we might not see it rite there n thn...
it is just hidden...
or waited to be found out...
there r secrets even lies...
everywhere...
everything seems normal today...
but maybe the very next moment...
everything changes drastically...
this is life huh...
nvr know wat is coming Next...
nvr know wat will determines our Future...
ppl might do things behind of u...
stabbing u...
making small tricks...
every step or decision...
must be taken seriously ....
nth much we say or do...
might even repay those things tht we had done...
it is just a thing or process we had to go on and on...
making decisions all the time....
even by clicking yes or no...
it is always decisions decisions decisions...
i wonder how far mistakes can ppl make?
wat mistakes tht cant be forgiven...
or maybe how long it will take to forgive somebody tht hurt u badly....
all this is just so unpredictable...
each and everyday...
we learnt sth...
we try not to repeat the same mistakes again...
we fell...
we woke up...
but after time passes....
the Old u...
came back...
and there goes we fell...
woke up....
all this routine...
until ...
one fine day...
when sth really "Big"...
sth tht makes u really change n finally realise...
tht this is the time...
where u finally hav to know tht...
u are wrg...
u hav to change...
Life just isnt about living
is the process of it
whether is is good or bad
we either face it or avoid it
Life still goes on
we r just normal human beings
nvr knew tht we r the ones
who had the rite
to changes things
to make things better
no one is perfect in their way
attitude, character
they are not born to be who they are now.
is the environment, background, frens, influence....
they are not to judge by the cover
just doing so
is so unfair to them
always...
saying easy, doing hard....
may time make us realise our mistakes...
n nvr repeat again....
(Diana) <3
nvr knew tht just by watching series like this....
will teach me sth...
all the Conflict...
every scene happen for a Reason....
we might not see it rite there n thn...
it is just hidden...
or waited to be found out...
there r secrets even lies...
everywhere...
everything seems normal today...
but maybe the very next moment...
everything changes drastically...
this is life huh...
nvr know wat is coming Next...
nvr know wat will determines our Future...
ppl might do things behind of u...
stabbing u...
making small tricks...
every step or decision...
must be taken seriously ....
nth much we say or do...
might even repay those things tht we had done...
it is just a thing or process we had to go on and on...
making decisions all the time....
even by clicking yes or no...
it is always decisions decisions decisions...
i wonder how far mistakes can ppl make?
wat mistakes tht cant be forgiven...
or maybe how long it will take to forgive somebody tht hurt u badly....
all this is just so unpredictable...
each and everyday...
we learnt sth...
we try not to repeat the same mistakes again...
we fell...
we woke up...
but after time passes....
the Old u...
came back...
and there goes we fell...
woke up....
all this routine...
until ...
one fine day...
when sth really "Big"...
sth tht makes u really change n finally realise...
tht this is the time...
where u finally hav to know tht...
u are wrg...
u hav to change...
Life just isnt about living
is the process of it
whether is is good or bad
we either face it or avoid it
Life still goes on
we r just normal human beings
nvr knew tht we r the ones
who had the rite
to changes things
to make things better
no one is perfect in their way
attitude, character
they are not born to be who they are now.
is the environment, background, frens, influence....
they are not to judge by the cover
just doing so
is so unfair to them
always...
saying easy, doing hard....
may time make us realise our mistakes...
n nvr repeat again....
(Diana) <3
Friday, July 25, 2008
~~GRATEFUL~~
grateful to hav done most of the assignments...
grateful tht some thing has to be done.... had alr done....
grateful tht i hav frens tht can make me laugh...
grateful i am not alone...
grateful all this is just the process of it...
grateful tht maybe this is just a test for me...
grateful in managing my emotions...
grateful tht i just being myself
grateful tht other ppl thinking no longer bother me...
grateful tht i understand there is still so much to learn...
grateful tht i accept things as it is...
grateful tht all this just makes me stronger...
grateful tht i finally get a clear eye in things...
there is so much i am grateful... this is only a part of it...
wat it stands for F.R.I.E.N.D.S??
my definition for this....
no longer is the way i think anymore...
but this is an early preparation for me..
giving me a wake up call....
making sure tht i dun step the wrg steps...
Life still Goes On as usual....
i still walk my life...
my Normal Life...
finally i get to go Mid Valley tmr!!
wonder how it is like anymore..
its been awhile the last time i went to a shopping complex...
i mean the usual one i went...
i just wan some peace....
some space on my own...
but of course not going to shop alone...
just tht giving some air to myself...
this will help...
hopefully it will help....
p/S: those frens tht helped me.... really BIG thank you!! ( u know who u are, everyone of u =D )
drank a can of Tiger Beer only, my head start to swing rite now... =.= i just deserves this....
(Diana) <3
grateful tht some thing has to be done.... had alr done....
grateful tht i hav frens tht can make me laugh...
grateful i am not alone...
grateful all this is just the process of it...
grateful tht maybe this is just a test for me...
grateful in managing my emotions...
grateful tht i just being myself
grateful tht other ppl thinking no longer bother me...
grateful tht i understand there is still so much to learn...
grateful tht i accept things as it is...
grateful tht all this just makes me stronger...
grateful tht i finally get a clear eye in things...
there is so much i am grateful... this is only a part of it...
wat it stands for F.R.I.E.N.D.S??
my definition for this....
no longer is the way i think anymore...
but this is an early preparation for me..
giving me a wake up call....
making sure tht i dun step the wrg steps...
Life still Goes On as usual....
i still walk my life...
my Normal Life...
finally i get to go Mid Valley tmr!!
wonder how it is like anymore..
its been awhile the last time i went to a shopping complex...
i mean the usual one i went...
i just wan some peace....
some space on my own...
but of course not going to shop alone...
just tht giving some air to myself...
this will help...
hopefully it will help....
p/S: those frens tht helped me.... really BIG thank you!! ( u know who u are, everyone of u =D )
drank a can of Tiger Beer only, my head start to swing rite now... =.= i just deserves this....
(Diana) <3
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Life Is Just SO Unpredictable
one can leave ....
just by one word...
one can stay....
maybe with a million words..
just voicing out...
makes it so hard....
i just realise sth....
but it is too late...
no more words can describe....
i thought i am ok...
but somehow ....
sth tell me....
i am not ok at all....
not ok at all.....
(Diana) <3
just by one word...
one can stay....
maybe with a million words..
just voicing out...
makes it so hard....
i just realise sth....
but it is too late...
no more words can describe....
i thought i am ok...
but somehow ....
sth tell me....
i am not ok at all....
not ok at all.....
(Diana) <3
Monday, July 21, 2008
Finally everything DONE
Both assignments done for now....
hopefully tmr tutor wont ask to change so much..
haihz..
say want go shopping...
shop till drop...
no chance at all
SOB SOB T.T
woo woo woo....
so sad....
hav to stay at home to complete all the stup ass!!!
so angry!!!
hate it!!
take me so long to finish!!!
yerrr!!!!!
angry angry!!!
stupid wan....
somemore frm tmr onwards...
yet another bz week....
wtih yet another ass....
zzZZzz...
when only i can go shop?????
haihz...
haihz...
haihz...
but at least now ....
i am relaxing...
watching "The Mistress Of Spices"
not really interesting show..
but the actress very pretty...
it will end at 3.00am....
after this....
maybe watch another movie only sleep....
so much wan to do....
but just not enough time..
time time time....
all this really need time management...
guess i will get back to my movie...
nites everyone...
(Diana)<3
hopefully tmr tutor wont ask to change so much..
haihz..
say want go shopping...
shop till drop...
no chance at all
SOB SOB T.T
woo woo woo....
so sad....
hav to stay at home to complete all the stup ass!!!
so angry!!!
hate it!!
take me so long to finish!!!
yerrr!!!!!
angry angry!!!
stupid wan....
somemore frm tmr onwards...
yet another bz week....
wtih yet another ass....
zzZZzz...
when only i can go shop?????
haihz...
haihz...
haihz...
but at least now ....
i am relaxing...
watching "The Mistress Of Spices"
not really interesting show..
but the actress very pretty...
it will end at 3.00am....
after this....
maybe watch another movie only sleep....
so much wan to do....
but just not enough time..
time time time....
all this really need time management...
guess i will get back to my movie...
nites everyone...
(Diana)<3
Sunday, July 20, 2008
HATE CATS
No offense to Cat lovers....
I just hated cats...
even just by the sight of it...
scare the hell out of me..
its weird for most of the ppl around me...
tht i scare of cats....
even my family could not und...
wat is there to scared about...
but they are not me...
i just cant tell..
memory recalls me...
when i am genting....
i still in primary school i guess....
went to this shop...
where the boss could not speak...
he is a nice man....
n of course with nice food...
when i was eating happily with forgot wat food...
there are a lot of cats surrounding our table....
yet i alr not a cat lover....
all this cats creeps me out...
was so afraid...
they are staring at u...
n keep meowing....
make u so uncomfortable...
eating every single bite of the food....
they like prepare to climb up n snatch ur food...
dunno where this stupid cat appear...
it appear under my table....
it is meowing where under the table has a place where it can lay on it...
omg!!!
i was so scared!!!
tht stupid cat not afraid somemore...
just keep meowing...
how to eat like tht..
dah lah....
so scared..
after this experience..
the sight of cat....
make me running away from it...
just now havig dinner with my parents...
again there exist CATS!!!
it keep meowing...
only the sound make me look left n right...
my leg straight up under the table where there is a rest place...
i was shaking all over....
my dad whom sit had sat beside me...
i asked for help...
dad just ask me to cont eat....
sob sob...
how to eat comfortablely...
tht cat really make me no appetite...
i wanted to leave tht place asap...
but with all the food...
i cant do anything but eat as fast as i could..
was so afraid....
not only 1 cat...
there is 2 of them...
somemore it came to my place and meow at me...
gosh!!!
thn it didnt just let me go..
instead go at the back of my chair n keep meowing...
yuck yuck yuck...
I HATE CATS!!!!
i even see cats doll
i also scared....
just a nightmare...
there is once...
my mum pick some kittens in our hole..
not sure wat hole...
the kittens...
yerr..
keep meowing...
one day....
i had tuition...
i know the kittens is outside of the house...
in the basket...
mana tahu...
went out...
the kittens climb out frm the basket...
n when it see me open the door...
it wan to come in to my house...
i was like panic..
fell like crying ady.....
then honk honk...
my grandpa came to fetch me to tuition...
i was in the middle of using a broom to sweep the kittens out of my house...
i dun even dare to touch it...
just its meows..
make me so scare...
n yet...
my grandpa didnt even try to help me...
sob...
but somehow in the end...
grandpa finally know sth is wrg...
went down his car..
pick the cat which is still on my broom..
n into the basket....
n he did not say a single word....
@.@
zzzz....
hate cats hate cats
everywhere also exist cats...
hate hate hate
(Diana) <3
I just hated cats...
even just by the sight of it...
scare the hell out of me..
its weird for most of the ppl around me...
tht i scare of cats....
even my family could not und...
wat is there to scared about...
but they are not me...
i just cant tell..
memory recalls me...
when i am genting....
i still in primary school i guess....
went to this shop...
where the boss could not speak...
he is a nice man....
n of course with nice food...
when i was eating happily with forgot wat food...
there are a lot of cats surrounding our table....
yet i alr not a cat lover....
all this cats creeps me out...
was so afraid...
they are staring at u...
n keep meowing....
make u so uncomfortable...
eating every single bite of the food....
they like prepare to climb up n snatch ur food...
dunno where this stupid cat appear...
it appear under my table....
it is meowing where under the table has a place where it can lay on it...
omg!!!
i was so scared!!!
tht stupid cat not afraid somemore...
just keep meowing...
how to eat like tht..
dah lah....
so scared..
after this experience..
the sight of cat....
make me running away from it...
just now havig dinner with my parents...
again there exist CATS!!!
it keep meowing...
only the sound make me look left n right...
my leg straight up under the table where there is a rest place...
i was shaking all over....
my dad whom sit had sat beside me...
i asked for help...
dad just ask me to cont eat....
sob sob...
how to eat comfortablely...
tht cat really make me no appetite...
i wanted to leave tht place asap...
but with all the food...
i cant do anything but eat as fast as i could..
was so afraid....
not only 1 cat...
there is 2 of them...
somemore it came to my place and meow at me...
gosh!!!
thn it didnt just let me go..
instead go at the back of my chair n keep meowing...
yuck yuck yuck...
I HATE CATS!!!!
i even see cats doll
i also scared....
just a nightmare...
there is once...
my mum pick some kittens in our hole..
not sure wat hole...
the kittens...
yerr..
keep meowing...
one day....
i had tuition...
i know the kittens is outside of the house...
in the basket...
mana tahu...
went out...
the kittens climb out frm the basket...
n when it see me open the door...
it wan to come in to my house...
i was like panic..
fell like crying ady.....
then honk honk...
my grandpa came to fetch me to tuition...
i was in the middle of using a broom to sweep the kittens out of my house...
i dun even dare to touch it...
just its meows..
make me so scare...
n yet...
my grandpa didnt even try to help me...
sob...
but somehow in the end...
grandpa finally know sth is wrg...
went down his car..
pick the cat which is still on my broom..
n into the basket....
n he did not say a single word....
@.@
zzzz....
hate cats hate cats
everywhere also exist cats...
hate hate hate
(Diana) <3
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Just a "Thought" of Mind
After all this weeks....
frm foundation till now..
do not know no more...
all this will lead to where..
will this fren be with u...
after my U life...
are they just here becoz they hav to be...
or they can vanish and disappear...
anytime anywhere...
hearing ppl say they had prob....
either...
friendship, relationship...
all this...
y is it so....
when it meant to happen...
it will...
sometimes...
i also do not know how to say....
those frens....
not one can be trusted....
not one sincerely treat u....
they even use u...
just for the time being...
after tht...
u r nth to them....
NTH at all...
they really need u...
they will all sorts to make u happy....
but after tht...
wat the crap are u to them?
i hated this kind of ppl!!
HATED so much....
i feel i am being used...
after tht...
they will treat me like rubbish ....
when they see me...
maybe they say hi...
but behind me...
will start a conversation on me...
saying me THis and THat...
wat for hav frens like this...
always wont know wat they think...
u look at them...
u can feel they had sth....
sth tht is hid frm u...
u look at theirs eyes n facial expression...
obviously...
showing tht there is sth tht they are not happy....
but still they are making this face...
saying tht they are ok...
nth is wrg....
just continue...
once sth happen...
they will start bursting out to u...
telling u...
u r this this this...
u cant do this this this...
funny huh....
this kind of situation....
i believe no one like it...
neither do i.....
having a fren tht is simple minded...
for me...
i feel is the best..
as in they wont ask for more..
just can share things...
just frens tht treat u well...
n u treat them well in return...
tht is enough for me...
but this kind of fren..
do they really exist...
now frens are no longer frens tht..
just has simple mind as i feel they should...
they will ask for more...
feeling u should give more...
share more..
all this things tht they ask....
u might not wan to give or share..
especially frens....
they will comment u....
talk behind ur backs....
saying things....
but wat to do...
who will hav te courage to say all out...
tht meant to be said...
the consequences is too big to sacrifice....
how many ppl will und tht u r doing this...
for their own good??
how many of them know how much courage u took to say it all out?
how many of them will und ur feeling?
how many of them will openly accept their mistakes?
thinking of this...
will u take this step...??
most of them take this step...
when they are force to....
who will wan this to happen...
no one...
just making frens...
need so much knowledge and patience...
n this is only part of our life....
there is so much more after we r out of U life...
hopefully all this...
wont happen too many times...
coz i really could not take it....
there is just so much to think...
so much to be consider...
(Diana) <3
frm foundation till now..
do not know no more...
all this will lead to where..
will this fren be with u...
after my U life...
are they just here becoz they hav to be...
or they can vanish and disappear...
anytime anywhere...
hearing ppl say they had prob....
either...
friendship, relationship...
all this...
y is it so....
when it meant to happen...
it will...
sometimes...
i also do not know how to say....
those frens....
not one can be trusted....
not one sincerely treat u....
they even use u...
just for the time being...
after tht...
u r nth to them....
NTH at all...
they really need u...
they will all sorts to make u happy....
but after tht...
wat the crap are u to them?
i hated this kind of ppl!!
HATED so much....
i feel i am being used...
after tht...
they will treat me like rubbish ....
when they see me...
maybe they say hi...
but behind me...
will start a conversation on me...
saying me THis and THat...
wat for hav frens like this...
always wont know wat they think...
u look at them...
u can feel they had sth....
sth tht is hid frm u...
u look at theirs eyes n facial expression...
obviously...
showing tht there is sth tht they are not happy....
but still they are making this face...
saying tht they are ok...
nth is wrg....
just continue...
once sth happen...
they will start bursting out to u...
telling u...
u r this this this...
u cant do this this this...
funny huh....
this kind of situation....
i believe no one like it...
neither do i.....
having a fren tht is simple minded...
for me...
i feel is the best..
as in they wont ask for more..
just can share things...
just frens tht treat u well...
n u treat them well in return...
tht is enough for me...
but this kind of fren..
do they really exist...
now frens are no longer frens tht..
just has simple mind as i feel they should...
they will ask for more...
feeling u should give more...
share more..
all this things tht they ask....
u might not wan to give or share..
especially frens....
they will comment u....
talk behind ur backs....
saying things....
but wat to do...
who will hav te courage to say all out...
tht meant to be said...
the consequences is too big to sacrifice....
how many ppl will und tht u r doing this...
for their own good??
how many of them know how much courage u took to say it all out?
how many of them will und ur feeling?
how many of them will openly accept their mistakes?
thinking of this...
will u take this step...??
most of them take this step...
when they are force to....
who will wan this to happen...
no one...
just making frens...
need so much knowledge and patience...
n this is only part of our life....
there is so much more after we r out of U life...
hopefully all this...
wont happen too many times...
coz i really could not take it....
there is just so much to think...
so much to be consider...
(Diana) <3
Friday, July 18, 2008
Glad to reach home this FAST
Omg...
i am really glad to reach home FAST enough...
if not i will suffocate inside of tht smelly car...
zzZzzz...
really smelly...
all the sweat smell....
no offense to the driver...
but i really feel like vomit..
suffocating...
came back home...
my parents....
angry me....
not coming home earlier when i could...
haihz....
said sth ....
which i didnt expect....
dunno who is wrong also....
small issue...
forget bout it...
ASSIGNMENTS!!!!
now left with 3 ass haven complete yet....
CB and A & P need to make some changes....
but luckily not too much...
CB still hanging...
waiting for tutor's reply....
wonder will he reply or not....
hope he rmb la....
he didnt reply my msg also.....
besides all this....
today i will finish all ass ...
tmr i wan go shopping!!!...
shopping spree!!!!
hehehhe
but i didnt asked any of my frens to accompany me...
haha, weird me...
just wanted to shop alone...
freedom!!!
can shop wherever i wan!!
goody....
but this is my plan....
which i do not know my parents...
being so so so so sos os so soso
Unpredictable.....
will allow me to go or not...
also dunno y keep me at home...
somemore i can only shop during the weekends ...
where i am back at home....
yea ...
maybe spend time with them...
but i alr did the pass few weeks....
this week should my time alr....
as nx wk...
will be yet another bz week...
with PRESENTATIONS...
miss my bloggy a lot....
luv u blog...
ahaha, pysho me... =P
(Diana) <3
i am really glad to reach home FAST enough...
if not i will suffocate inside of tht smelly car...
zzZzzz...
really smelly...
all the sweat smell....
no offense to the driver...
but i really feel like vomit..
suffocating...
came back home...
my parents....
angry me....
not coming home earlier when i could...
haihz....
said sth ....
which i didnt expect....
dunno who is wrong also....
small issue...
forget bout it...
ASSIGNMENTS!!!!
now left with 3 ass haven complete yet....
CB and A & P need to make some changes....
but luckily not too much...
CB still hanging...
waiting for tutor's reply....
wonder will he reply or not....
hope he rmb la....
he didnt reply my msg also.....
besides all this....
today i will finish all ass ...
tmr i wan go shopping!!!...
shopping spree!!!!
hehehhe
but i didnt asked any of my frens to accompany me...
haha, weird me...
just wanted to shop alone...
freedom!!!
can shop wherever i wan!!
goody....
but this is my plan....
which i do not know my parents...
being so so so so sos os so soso
Unpredictable.....
will allow me to go or not...
also dunno y keep me at home...
somemore i can only shop during the weekends ...
where i am back at home....
yea ...
maybe spend time with them...
but i alr did the pass few weeks....
this week should my time alr....
as nx wk...
will be yet another bz week...
with PRESENTATIONS...
miss my bloggy a lot....
luv u blog...
ahaha, pysho me... =P
(Diana) <3
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Get to RELAX while Stressing
Bought Colored contact lense last week...
Blue One
get to wear it yest and of course today to U....
hmmm...
the 1st day i wore...
is during nite time..
cant see much difference...
so disappointed...
like my money wasted...
but today ...
some of my classmate notice...
at least not so bad...
but now took it off....
eyes quite tiring...
but it is a good experience...
is like taking risk...
n not sure wat is the outcome...
just do it n think later...
really high risk, high return....
i like it though...
sth different for a change...
yest nite....
get to watch some series after long hours spend on assignments.....
watch FULL HOUSE!!!
love the show, i am actually watching again..
but it is still really nice and funny!!
my housemate have been saying tht i am crazy...
to watch tv n laugh alone....
they say like ghost like tht...
alone in the room n yet can laugh so hard....
i am really tv addicted wan...
once i really into tht show...
i will be happy if the show is happy...
but at times...
when they cry...
i pulak can laugh...
coz i feel the actor do it in a very Fake way...
makes me feel funny....
good also to hav some break time...
this wk is really rense with assignments..
but at least now ....
most of it...
almost complete...
so not so scare...
the scared part is....
all the effort might be wrong...
or maybe our direction is wrong....
thn the whole assignment is doom!!
but dun care la...
just follow tutor instruction...
n just do our best...^^
(Diana) <3
Blue One
get to wear it yest and of course today to U....
hmmm...
the 1st day i wore...
is during nite time..
cant see much difference...
so disappointed...
like my money wasted...
but today ...
some of my classmate notice...
at least not so bad...
but now took it off....
eyes quite tiring...
but it is a good experience...
is like taking risk...
n not sure wat is the outcome...
just do it n think later...
really high risk, high return....
i like it though...
sth different for a change...
yest nite....
get to watch some series after long hours spend on assignments.....
watch FULL HOUSE!!!
love the show, i am actually watching again..
but it is still really nice and funny!!
my housemate have been saying tht i am crazy...
to watch tv n laugh alone....
they say like ghost like tht...
alone in the room n yet can laugh so hard....
i am really tv addicted wan...
once i really into tht show...
i will be happy if the show is happy...
but at times...
when they cry...
i pulak can laugh...
coz i feel the actor do it in a very Fake way...
makes me feel funny....
good also to hav some break time...
this wk is really rense with assignments..
but at least now ....
most of it...
almost complete...
so not so scare...
the scared part is....
all the effort might be wrong...
or maybe our direction is wrong....
thn the whole assignment is doom!!
but dun care la...
just follow tutor instruction...
n just do our best...^^
(Diana) <3
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Class Always Cancel
dunno y...
this tutor always cancel class.
n in the end ...
hav to replace so many classes...
worst of all....
her replacement class dun exixt wan!!!
yest she said 9.30am got replacement...
she dunno forgot or wat....
didnt confirm with cls rep at all...
hav to come back early just becoz of her cls!!
n yet it is cancel!!!
zzzz... also dunno wat she wans.....
now doing assignment...
all 3 do together...
this is call one shot....
english done ady...
edit according to tutor's needs....
A & P done and combine ady....
left edit part which will cont later...
now doing CB assignment...
Executive summary and Introduction just done...
thn still left positioning and recommendations...
thn it is done!!!
faster over everything....
but still got short presentation this friday....
haven prepare a single thing...
n the title for the english presentation...
haven find somemore....
@.@
nvr ending wan...
grrr.......
after all this is done...
i swear i wan to shop till i drop!!!
dun need to buy things also can
i just need some air for myself....
cant breath...
so much to do....
oh ya...
omg...
i still hav cds stuff to do...
gosh!!!
T.T
really wan to cry...
so many things wan....
sob sob sob!!!!
haihz....
just hav to deal with it!!
this weekend i really wan to go shopping...
watch movie !!!!
relax to the max...
thn the following week hav to start studying ady....
haihz....
(Diana) <3
this tutor always cancel class.
n in the end ...
hav to replace so many classes...
worst of all....
her replacement class dun exixt wan!!!
yest she said 9.30am got replacement...
she dunno forgot or wat....
didnt confirm with cls rep at all...
hav to come back early just becoz of her cls!!
n yet it is cancel!!!
zzzz... also dunno wat she wans.....
now doing assignment...
all 3 do together...
this is call one shot....
english done ady...
edit according to tutor's needs....
A & P done and combine ady....
left edit part which will cont later...
now doing CB assignment...
Executive summary and Introduction just done...
thn still left positioning and recommendations...
thn it is done!!!
faster over everything....
but still got short presentation this friday....
haven prepare a single thing...
n the title for the english presentation...
haven find somemore....
@.@
nvr ending wan...
grrr.......
after all this is done...
i swear i wan to shop till i drop!!!
dun need to buy things also can
i just need some air for myself....
cant breath...
so much to do....
oh ya...
omg...
i still hav cds stuff to do...
gosh!!!
T.T
really wan to cry...
so many things wan....
sob sob sob!!!!
haihz....
just hav to deal with it!!
this weekend i really wan to go shopping...
watch movie !!!!
relax to the max...
thn the following week hav to start studying ady....
haihz....
(Diana) <3
Monday, July 14, 2008
Really LOW Marks T.T
Haihz...
i am really a total failure....
i get 4/40 for advertising n promotion!!
the lowest marks i ever get in my history of education!!!
when i took the paper...
i was like Stunned!!
i do not know where i gone wrong!!
so ashame!
omg....>!!!!
haihz...
i am always taking things too lightly...
always must happen sth...
only will do sth bout it...
i just do not know how many mistakes i can make anymore..
how many times i need this kind of Wake Up Call??
how many times only i will realise?
how many times i only will get in mind???
how many more times i need to get this low marks???
y am i so ignorant??
y always regret after tht?
y always allow this to happen??
y must make things worst only u get it??
how many times only it will get to ur head??
i just wonder how many times??
how many times??
it will only make me realise...
i am nvr good enough if i keep going on like this...
i am not gud at anything...
not anything at all...
n yet..
i am a gurl..
gurl usually had to be the kind..
study even the guys wont normally do...
but i choose the guy's style..
wat also cin cin cai cai...
dun hav limitations..
always just cant stand my own point...
easy get influence...
haihz....
now regret...
wat is the point...
i am lucky tht this midterm...
round up is only 8 marks...
haihz....
now i get to know is actually not too late..
there is still time to improve...
nx monday...
see tutor...
asked her wat is my prob...
thn i hav to start to work really hard....
no more playing around...
giving reasons to myself..
tht i hav a lot of time....
tht is really an excuse to myself...
bluffing myself n others...
haihz....
(Diana) <3
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i am really a total failure....
i get 4/40 for advertising n promotion!!
the lowest marks i ever get in my history of education!!!
when i took the paper...
i was like Stunned!!
i do not know where i gone wrong!!
so ashame!
omg....>!!!!
haihz...
i am always taking things too lightly...
always must happen sth...
only will do sth bout it...
i just do not know how many mistakes i can make anymore..
how many times i need this kind of Wake Up Call??
how many times only i will realise?
how many times i only will get in mind???
how many more times i need to get this low marks???
y am i so ignorant??
y always regret after tht?
y always allow this to happen??
y must make things worst only u get it??
how many times only it will get to ur head??
i just wonder how many times??
how many times??
it will only make me realise...
i am nvr good enough if i keep going on like this...
i am not gud at anything...
not anything at all...
n yet..
i am a gurl..
gurl usually had to be the kind..
study even the guys wont normally do...
but i choose the guy's style..
wat also cin cin cai cai...
dun hav limitations..
always just cant stand my own point...
easy get influence...
haihz....
now regret...
wat is the point...
i am lucky tht this midterm...
round up is only 8 marks...
haihz....
now i get to know is actually not too late..
there is still time to improve...
nx monday...
see tutor...
asked her wat is my prob...
thn i hav to start to work really hard....
no more playing around...
giving reasons to myself..
tht i hav a lot of time....
tht is really an excuse to myself...
bluffing myself n others...
haihz....
(Diana) <3
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Sunday, July 13, 2008
Time Passes Fast
So sad ...
hav to leave home so soon...
since back from Friday...
everything like fast forward...
so less time spent with family..
Friday nite had dinner with family as usual...
late midnight my sis n her future husband came home...
n they both kacau me sleeping...=.=
dun wan choi them also cannot...
they call me pikachuu!!
straight get response from me...
ahaha...
funny la..
always they come bac..
everything is like in a rush...
as they come back just for like one day only..
later going bac sg long...
think of tht also feel sien...
no internet connection...
is like no connection with outside world...
stuck in tht small space...
n hav to live with it...
got laptop also no use...
haihz...
assignments ....
partly done....
but still not complete yet...
sien sien sien....
~~wish tmr is a better day~~
(Diana) <3
hav to leave home so soon...
since back from Friday...
everything like fast forward...
so less time spent with family..
Friday nite had dinner with family as usual...
late midnight my sis n her future husband came home...
n they both kacau me sleeping...=.=
dun wan choi them also cannot...
they call me pikachuu!!
straight get response from me...
ahaha...
funny la..
always they come bac..
everything is like in a rush...
as they come back just for like one day only..
later going bac sg long...
think of tht also feel sien...
no internet connection...
is like no connection with outside world...
stuck in tht small space...
n hav to live with it...
got laptop also no use...
haihz...
assignments ....
partly done....
but still not complete yet...
sien sien sien....
~~wish tmr is a better day~~
(Diana) <3
Somehow a TIRING DAY
So much to do...
n yet the time passes so fast...
really cant catch up with time...
once the time is used...
no way turning it backwards...
still got tonnes of ass....
haven done yet...
tmr is the last day for me to complete it...
as mon i will back to U...
which in my place there...
currently no internet connection...
which is very very troublesome..
wat also cannot do...
this dinner i took..
really long enough...
so tired..
although i didnt do the cooking...
just help up to wash some dishes...
n help to makan n drink of course...
other than tht...
i pratically didnt do anything like heavy job...
but n yet i am tired...
maybe this morning...
i miraculously ....
woke up early ...
which i meant early is just 10.30am..
this time is really early for me...
especially when i am home...
woke up ....
went to print out my ass stuff...
ate breakfast with parents...
thn having some diff decisions on buying which duck at which place...????
tht took quite some time...
as we wan cheap n yet is nice...
search search search...
back to square one with the initial place to buy the duck...
thn off to send the duck...
which is part of my dinner tonite...
didnt contribute much for the dinner....
just the dck n one carton of tiger beers..
reach for the dinner only know tht
is celebrating three persons b'day..
n we didnt prepare anything at all....
get to eat the cakes...
which is very delicious..
my sis is one of the b'day girl...
but her b'day is like end of this mth...
still got long time lo...
so cant blame me for not preparing her b'day present...
but all in all..
the dinner really nice!!..
my future sister's husband(i do not know wat is the exact word in addresing him, so, cincai la)
he is really good in cooking ....
as usual his spaghetti was just simple delicious...
thn his soup which is an appetizer was really nice...
it contains celery, tomato, cucumber....
the combination was really nice...
western style..
he also tried for the very 1st time...
follow Jamie Oliver's style..
very nice dish also!!
n with the fresh mints...
freshly pluck n add on top with the lamb...
just goes so well...
a bit exaggerating...
but it is really delicious..^^
later tht..
had desert..
cakes...
one is jelly cake...
those cake hav to be special ordered in The Curve...
another is Chocolate cake..
a really rich one...
my favourite flavour...
love it!..
the jelly cae was nice too...
not too sweet..
the kids really luv it...
after tht...
had beer n wines...
with nuts....
too enjoy ady...
chat about anything...
listening to all those normal news stuff..
which i do not know any single of it...
i guess i stay under some stone or wat....
my dad always scold me for not reading newspaper...
worst still..
i do not surf in the net for news..
he always emphasis...
you are marketing student...
u hav to know all this current issue...
hav to know the economy..
all this is so important..
there goes......
he will go on again n again...
........
k la...
no time to loose...
better get some sleep..
tmr will hav to finish all my ass stuff...
nites everyone ^^
(Diana)<3
n yet the time passes so fast...
really cant catch up with time...
once the time is used...
no way turning it backwards...
still got tonnes of ass....
haven done yet...
tmr is the last day for me to complete it...
as mon i will back to U...
which in my place there...
currently no internet connection...
which is very very troublesome..
wat also cannot do...
this dinner i took..
really long enough...
so tired..
although i didnt do the cooking...
just help up to wash some dishes...
n help to makan n drink of course...
other than tht...
i pratically didnt do anything like heavy job...
but n yet i am tired...
maybe this morning...
i miraculously ....
woke up early ...
which i meant early is just 10.30am..
this time is really early for me...
especially when i am home...
woke up ....
went to print out my ass stuff...
ate breakfast with parents...
thn having some diff decisions on buying which duck at which place...????
tht took quite some time...
as we wan cheap n yet is nice...
search search search...
back to square one with the initial place to buy the duck...
thn off to send the duck...
which is part of my dinner tonite...
didnt contribute much for the dinner....
just the dck n one carton of tiger beers..
reach for the dinner only know tht
is celebrating three persons b'day..
n we didnt prepare anything at all....
get to eat the cakes...
which is very delicious..
my sis is one of the b'day girl...
but her b'day is like end of this mth...
still got long time lo...
so cant blame me for not preparing her b'day present...
but all in all..
the dinner really nice!!..
my future sister's husband(i do not know wat is the exact word in addresing him, so, cincai la)
he is really good in cooking ....
as usual his spaghetti was just simple delicious...
thn his soup which is an appetizer was really nice...
it contains celery, tomato, cucumber....
the combination was really nice...
western style..
he also tried for the very 1st time...
follow Jamie Oliver's style..
very nice dish also!!
n with the fresh mints...
freshly pluck n add on top with the lamb...
just goes so well...
a bit exaggerating...
but it is really delicious..^^
later tht..
had desert..
cakes...
one is jelly cake...
those cake hav to be special ordered in The Curve...
another is Chocolate cake..
a really rich one...
my favourite flavour...
love it!..
the jelly cae was nice too...
not too sweet..
the kids really luv it...
after tht...
had beer n wines...
with nuts....
too enjoy ady...
chat about anything...
listening to all those normal news stuff..
which i do not know any single of it...
i guess i stay under some stone or wat....
my dad always scold me for not reading newspaper...
worst still..
i do not surf in the net for news..
he always emphasis...
you are marketing student...
u hav to know all this current issue...
hav to know the economy..
all this is so important..
there goes......
he will go on again n again...
........
k la...
no time to loose...
better get some sleep..
tmr will hav to finish all my ass stuff...
nites everyone ^^
(Diana)<3
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Peace
Wat has done alr done....
nth much more to argue or say...
things turn out to be this way for a reason....
but this reason no longer important....
as it is not an Issue anymore.....
after this....
after all this...
i had much more to be worried...
this is just part of it...
the process of it...
once this is over....
nth more i can asked....
but just some entertainment n of course SHOPPING!!!...
the sales has started!!
n i heard tht Levis had 50% discount!!
wanted to rush to the mall tmr to buy few pair of it!!
but there is not much time for me...
everything have to be rushed for tmr..
anyways...
Bani....
He came back from Kampar today....
haihz...
just talked to in like for 30 seconds...
thn need to go for cls..
after cls...
straight back to my home in Kepong...
srry ar Bani....
didnt get to spend some time with u...
i mean chatting...
so long didnt hear u crap ady....
wondering are u stil the same..
doing the dragon smoke thing...
same old jokes...
hahhaah...
even becoz Mister Bani,
we get scolded by our CB tutor....
poor tutor...
berkobar-kobar wan to help us...
but no one wan to response...
no one wan to asked..
of course he emo la....
somemore we keep distracted frm Mr. Bani...
who r just standing outside of the cls...
coz its a SuRPRisE
we did not know he is back...
although i know he is bac yest nite...
just tht didnt see him....
other than this...
i guess is having a nice conversation with my dad....
talking to my dad is diff from mums...
as dads will tell u very frankly...
as in telling u r this this this this this...
he will take care of ur feelings also...
but more on telling u truthfully...
he really did tell me a lot on how to handle things...
i agree most of it....
it is my fault also...
but when he heard again...
my reason...
he agreed wat i say..
so this is it...
no more arguments...
i alr get wat i needed to hear...
no more struggling...
finding the rite words....
hmmm....
i shud inhale n exhale....
maybe all this will be gone soon enough...
no more worries for me...
gud for everyone...
inhale exhale
inhale exhale
inhale exhale
(dun think i am crazy, i really type n do it as well, it really helps....part of my small tricks to cool down)
(Diana) <3
nth much more to argue or say...
things turn out to be this way for a reason....
but this reason no longer important....
as it is not an Issue anymore.....
after this....
after all this...
i had much more to be worried...
this is just part of it...
the process of it...
once this is over....
nth more i can asked....
but just some entertainment n of course SHOPPING!!!...
the sales has started!!
n i heard tht Levis had 50% discount!!
wanted to rush to the mall tmr to buy few pair of it!!
but there is not much time for me...
everything have to be rushed for tmr..
anyways...
Bani....
He came back from Kampar today....
haihz...
just talked to in like for 30 seconds...
thn need to go for cls..
after cls...
straight back to my home in Kepong...
srry ar Bani....
didnt get to spend some time with u...
i mean chatting...
so long didnt hear u crap ady....
wondering are u stil the same..
doing the dragon smoke thing...
same old jokes...
hahhaah...
even becoz Mister Bani,
we get scolded by our CB tutor....
poor tutor...
berkobar-kobar wan to help us...
but no one wan to response...
no one wan to asked..
of course he emo la....
somemore we keep distracted frm Mr. Bani...
who r just standing outside of the cls...
coz its a SuRPRisE
we did not know he is back...
although i know he is bac yest nite...
just tht didnt see him....
other than this...
i guess is having a nice conversation with my dad....
talking to my dad is diff from mums...
as dads will tell u very frankly...
as in telling u r this this this this this...
he will take care of ur feelings also...
but more on telling u truthfully...
he really did tell me a lot on how to handle things...
i agree most of it....
it is my fault also...
but when he heard again...
my reason...
he agreed wat i say..
so this is it...
no more arguments...
i alr get wat i needed to hear...
no more struggling...
finding the rite words....
hmmm....
i shud inhale n exhale....
maybe all this will be gone soon enough...
no more worries for me...
gud for everyone...
inhale exhale
inhale exhale
inhale exhale
(dun think i am crazy, i really type n do it as well, it really helps....part of my small tricks to cool down)
(Diana) <3
Thursday, July 10, 2008
A Long Long Day
Early in the morning....
still in my SWEET dreams...
9.30 cls...
9.20 only wake up....
i am just so PIG....
went to this English Cls...
was so so so sleepy...
i even yawn 3 times before my tutor who was in front of me...
stopped me frm yawning...
she said" you know yawning... yawning can.... wat she meant shud be spread.... =.="
thn she continue... she said.. if u yawn again, u better sit behind the wall or i will throw u out of the cls!!!
i was like... stunned... speechless....
later...
she asked for text book...
which as usual...
most of us do not hav...
she wanted to scold...
but she controlled her temper...
the way she do it is just so amazing...
as last wk we alr did not bring...
after tht...
my fren sitting beside me...
did not bring notes...
in front of her...
she found out n wanted to fire...
but again she cooled down...
later...
during checking assignments..
my group is the 1st to checked..
she asked several Q but we could not answer...
n yet again...
we know she is angry...
but she still controll...
after tht...
other group let her checked..
she try to find an appropriate word...
i try to help...
she go n say dun know one word n simply say...
i was like....
omg...
i was just trying to HELP!!!
no big deal rite...
damn emo...
but tht is just awhile...
yawn thing is defintely my fault...
assignment also partly i am responsible...
but the last part...
she really....
after tht...
came back to my house....
met my EX-OWNER!!!
omg!!
i am just so unlucky
she go n asked my fren whether i wan bac the deposit!!
so i went out la!
so stupid la me!
she straight telling me bout the condition of the house!!
which i told her before about the sink!
i was like getting scold for sth i didnt do!!
so angry!!!
she was like standing there...
keep scolding again n again...
all those things also not i left there wan!!
come n scold me for nth!!!
stupid boss lady!
so geram...
somemore talk so loud...
shouting on top of her voice..
lucky my housemates helped me...
if not i will be stuck there listening to her...
she even wan me to witness the mess of the house!!
mang jang betul!!
after all tht scene...
went for cls..
present tutorial Q....
but somehow tutor missed us...
so dun need present..
later...
had MIS exam...
easily get through...
ahhaha...
thn straight went for BBQ buffet steamboat...
wah...
ate a lot a lot...
too much to eat...
wat also eat...
so full n smelly after the meal....
one day just can do a lot of things...
now i hav to start with assignments...
so sienss...
so much to do....
but just so hard to start....
guess stop crapping...
more doing....
(Diana) <3
still in my SWEET dreams...
9.30 cls...
9.20 only wake up....
i am just so PIG....
went to this English Cls...
was so so so sleepy...
i even yawn 3 times before my tutor who was in front of me...
stopped me frm yawning...
she said" you know yawning... yawning can.... wat she meant shud be spread.... =.="
thn she continue... she said.. if u yawn again, u better sit behind the wall or i will throw u out of the cls!!!
i was like... stunned... speechless....
later...
she asked for text book...
which as usual...
most of us do not hav...
she wanted to scold...
but she controlled her temper...
the way she do it is just so amazing...
as last wk we alr did not bring...
after tht...
my fren sitting beside me...
did not bring notes...
in front of her...
she found out n wanted to fire...
but again she cooled down...
later...
during checking assignments..
my group is the 1st to checked..
she asked several Q but we could not answer...
n yet again...
we know she is angry...
but she still controll...
after tht...
other group let her checked..
she try to find an appropriate word...
i try to help...
she go n say dun know one word n simply say...
i was like....
omg...
i was just trying to HELP!!!
no big deal rite...
damn emo...
but tht is just awhile...
yawn thing is defintely my fault...
assignment also partly i am responsible...
but the last part...
she really....
after tht...
came back to my house....
met my EX-OWNER!!!
omg!!
i am just so unlucky
she go n asked my fren whether i wan bac the deposit!!
so i went out la!
so stupid la me!
she straight telling me bout the condition of the house!!
which i told her before about the sink!
i was like getting scold for sth i didnt do!!
so angry!!!
she was like standing there...
keep scolding again n again...
all those things also not i left there wan!!
come n scold me for nth!!!
stupid boss lady!
so geram...
somemore talk so loud...
shouting on top of her voice..
lucky my housemates helped me...
if not i will be stuck there listening to her...
she even wan me to witness the mess of the house!!
mang jang betul!!
after all tht scene...
went for cls..
present tutorial Q....
but somehow tutor missed us...
so dun need present..
later...
had MIS exam...
easily get through...
ahhaha...
thn straight went for BBQ buffet steamboat...
wah...
ate a lot a lot...
too much to eat...
wat also eat...
so full n smelly after the meal....
one day just can do a lot of things...
now i hav to start with assignments...
so sienss...
so much to do....
but just so hard to start....
guess stop crapping...
more doing....
(Diana) <3
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Believe In Urself
Now think of it....
This theme i gave for my blog....
actually is really wat i lack of...
i do not know how much capabilities i hav...
always a doubt....
do not know wat i am good at...
i rmb at home...
i Used to be a useless person....
often waited everyone to do everything for me...
as i had servant before...
i still rmb the way i ordered them...
like a big gurl giving instructions to them....
in one incident...
i rmbered i made one of my Kakak cried...
is like watever i asked....
is still not satisfying..
she broke down n say wat u wan me to do....
i alr did my very best....
those are the times...
even now i rmbered....
i am only bout 7 to 8 years old....
so small n yet not grateful at all....
thinking of those days...
make me who i am now...
still there are parts of me tht are still the same...
often own attitude is the worst part to hav any changes...
usually when u changes...
is sth happens badly tht made u changes...
just 1 year plus ago...
i rmbered i get my driving license....
i am so happy...
as i even had a car waiting for me to drive..
although is not wat fancy car...
but i can drive whenever i wan...
but 1st timer...
always wan to get things fast...
i know i am not really ready for it...
i am not stable..
not steady enough to handle driving...
the day when i told my mum..
i wan to drive alone to college...
she said ok....
of course will a tone of unwillingness....
my mum was worried...
but i told her...
how long u wan to follow me to college...
as the nx wk...
she will be flying to China....
so she reluctantly said yes...
n secretly drove another car n followed me...
i was so shocked after i parked my car....
n of course was angry tht she did not trusted me...
but once i cooled down...
i know i was wrg to even be mad at her...
this is the greatest mum i ever had..
worried bout her daughter...
worried sick tht she cant handle alone..
this is really a mum tht will do anything for me...
although she appears unwillingly...
one day...
after my assignments with my frens..
i fetch them back to their hostel...
it was raining...
i met an accident...
i was hit by the driver side...
i rmb i even said Shit...
my specs flew..
the glass shattered...
n it stopped spinning...
at tht split moment..
someone open my door...
a good Samarithan...
whom came out to be a Doctor..
lead me out of the wreck car....
i only realised..
i am in the middle of the road...
n he told me my car spin twice....
i am so blur...
head still spinning with dizzyness...
but i am not hurt...
all this happen in spilt seconds...
the nx thing i knew...
my parents came...
the nx day..
police station..
i was decuted marks...
bout 8 marks..
need to pay denda...
n my wreck car...
was nth worth more than a junk...
n i...
miraculously...
i survived...
my mom was worried sick...
my bro told me...
she sit there cry...
she even force me to see a doctor..
which i rejected...
i told her i am FINE...
now i recalled this...
without my family..
being so supportive all this time...
sacrificing a lot just becoz of me..
because of sth tht i did...
i hav no words to say but a big Thank You to all of them...
all this can happen...
they didnt even blame me..
especially my dad...
paying all the bills....
he didnt even utter a word...
didnt even complain...
even till now..
they are always very supportive...
always know when to gv a helping hand...
although i dun even asked...
i am just so damn lucky....
n i am really grateful to hav all of my family members with me...
for i know they will try hard to gv the best to me...
no matter wat it will be...
support, love, advise, listener....
all this is just irreplaceable...
Thanks for being there for me...
Thanks for listening to me...
Thanks for tolerating with me...
Thanks for giving the BEST to me...
Thanks for everything tht u all had ever gave me...
Thanks for being so understanding..
Thanks for being a good parents...
Thanks for loving me always...
Thanks for accepting who i am...
Thanks for not giving up on me....
Thanks for ur support n love....
I really appreciate a lot...
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
(Diana) <3
This theme i gave for my blog....
actually is really wat i lack of...
i do not know how much capabilities i hav...
always a doubt....
do not know wat i am good at...
i rmb at home...
i Used to be a useless person....
often waited everyone to do everything for me...
as i had servant before...
i still rmb the way i ordered them...
like a big gurl giving instructions to them....
in one incident...
i rmbered i made one of my Kakak cried...
is like watever i asked....
is still not satisfying..
she broke down n say wat u wan me to do....
i alr did my very best....
those are the times...
even now i rmbered....
i am only bout 7 to 8 years old....
so small n yet not grateful at all....
thinking of those days...
make me who i am now...
still there are parts of me tht are still the same...
often own attitude is the worst part to hav any changes...
usually when u changes...
is sth happens badly tht made u changes...
just 1 year plus ago...
i rmbered i get my driving license....
i am so happy...
as i even had a car waiting for me to drive..
although is not wat fancy car...
but i can drive whenever i wan...
but 1st timer...
always wan to get things fast...
i know i am not really ready for it...
i am not stable..
not steady enough to handle driving...
the day when i told my mum..
i wan to drive alone to college...
she said ok....
of course will a tone of unwillingness....
my mum was worried...
but i told her...
how long u wan to follow me to college...
as the nx wk...
she will be flying to China....
so she reluctantly said yes...
n secretly drove another car n followed me...
i was so shocked after i parked my car....
n of course was angry tht she did not trusted me...
but once i cooled down...
i know i was wrg to even be mad at her...
this is the greatest mum i ever had..
worried bout her daughter...
worried sick tht she cant handle alone..
this is really a mum tht will do anything for me...
although she appears unwillingly...
one day...
after my assignments with my frens..
i fetch them back to their hostel...
it was raining...
i met an accident...
i was hit by the driver side...
i rmb i even said Shit...
my specs flew..
the glass shattered...
n it stopped spinning...
at tht split moment..
someone open my door...
a good Samarithan...
whom came out to be a Doctor..
lead me out of the wreck car....
i only realised..
i am in the middle of the road...
n he told me my car spin twice....
i am so blur...
head still spinning with dizzyness...
but i am not hurt...
all this happen in spilt seconds...
the nx thing i knew...
my parents came...
the nx day..
police station..
i was decuted marks...
bout 8 marks..
need to pay denda...
n my wreck car...
was nth worth more than a junk...
n i...
miraculously...
i survived...
my mom was worried sick...
my bro told me...
she sit there cry...
she even force me to see a doctor..
which i rejected...
i told her i am FINE...
now i recalled this...
without my family..
being so supportive all this time...
sacrificing a lot just becoz of me..
because of sth tht i did...
i hav no words to say but a big Thank You to all of them...
all this can happen...
they didnt even blame me..
especially my dad...
paying all the bills....
he didnt even utter a word...
didnt even complain...
even till now..
they are always very supportive...
always know when to gv a helping hand...
although i dun even asked...
i am just so damn lucky....
n i am really grateful to hav all of my family members with me...
for i know they will try hard to gv the best to me...
no matter wat it will be...
support, love, advise, listener....
all this is just irreplaceable...
Thanks for being there for me...
Thanks for listening to me...
Thanks for tolerating with me...
Thanks for giving the BEST to me...
Thanks for everything tht u all had ever gave me...
Thanks for being so understanding..
Thanks for being a good parents...
Thanks for loving me always...
Thanks for accepting who i am...
Thanks for not giving up on me....
Thanks for ur support n love....
I really appreciate a lot...
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
(Diana) <3
Oh "Crab", i am so DEAD
i didnt know wat is the time...
i look at the time n it is alr 4sth....
omg!!!
i slept like a pig...
for dunno how many hours...
i am so dead!!!
is like dunno since how long i slept this long hours....
my mum dun even called me...
oh shit....
i am so so so ....
omg...
die ady...
i better get my butt down now...
i really....
dead...
(Diana) <3
i look at the time n it is alr 4sth....
omg!!!
i slept like a pig...
for dunno how many hours...
i am so dead!!!
is like dunno since how long i slept this long hours....
my mum dun even called me...
oh shit....
i am so so so ....
omg...
die ady...
i better get my butt down now...
i really....
dead...
(Diana) <3
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Outing tht i ENJOYED
the things tht i hav been thinking..
somehow just vanish...
after the lunch i had alone...
coz my mum just saw this brouchure saying bout foot reflexology in Kepong...
she find it quite cheap...
straight called the place...
n my dad just say Lets Go...
sometimes they can just be so spontanous...
haha..
they are just so sweet...
its been quite awhile they didnt argue...
not tht they often argue...
just tht when it comes to diff opinion...
small fight cant be prevent..
just seeing them both makes me think openly...
to the things tht i felt is important
n yet take it somewhat too seriously...
i am just being me...
taking things serious most of the time...
the mood spoiler...
always do the wrg thing at the wrg time...
making ppl annoyed...
how to say...
i am just no fun person...
i can be one...
but hav to see with who n wat mood am i....
just not an all around person....
wat also can handle...
flaws everywhere....
btw...
the outing is just simple...
dinner at Puchong...
had Yong Tau Foo....
yummy n delicious...
met up with cousins...
just chit chatting...
especially my cousins are young...
they are just so naive...
seeing them just makes me feel comfortable...
no need to wrry so much....
as they are just easy to talk to...
dun need too much technique or so....
simple words n just a simple smile...
they will smile back.... =)
tmr will be another day...
another day with full of uncertainties...
not sure wat plans for tmr..
i just know i haven start my studies for ANP...
somemore bought reader's digest....
hmmm... guess i hav to catch up with some readings...
no more slacking alr...
(Diana) <3
somehow just vanish...
after the lunch i had alone...
coz my mum just saw this brouchure saying bout foot reflexology in Kepong...
she find it quite cheap...
straight called the place...
n my dad just say Lets Go...
sometimes they can just be so spontanous...
haha..
they are just so sweet...
its been quite awhile they didnt argue...
not tht they often argue...
just tht when it comes to diff opinion...
small fight cant be prevent..
just seeing them both makes me think openly...
to the things tht i felt is important
n yet take it somewhat too seriously...
i am just being me...
taking things serious most of the time...
the mood spoiler...
always do the wrg thing at the wrg time...
making ppl annoyed...
how to say...
i am just no fun person...
i can be one...
but hav to see with who n wat mood am i....
just not an all around person....
wat also can handle...
flaws everywhere....
btw...
the outing is just simple...
dinner at Puchong...
had Yong Tau Foo....
yummy n delicious...
met up with cousins...
just chit chatting...
especially my cousins are young...
they are just so naive...
seeing them just makes me feel comfortable...
no need to wrry so much....
as they are just easy to talk to...
dun need too much technique or so....
simple words n just a simple smile...
they will smile back.... =)
tmr will be another day...
another day with full of uncertainties...
not sure wat plans for tmr..
i just know i haven start my studies for ANP...
somemore bought reader's digest....
hmmm... guess i hav to catch up with some readings...
no more slacking alr...
(Diana) <3
Still Clear In MY MIND
dunno wat to say....
although i slept quite a number of hours...
it is still fresh in my mind...
but how much could i do to make things better....
i really do not know...
i just...........
haihz... forget bout it...
nth worth listening if everything is thought has alr been fixed....
its hard to change anything alr...
so many things to say....
n yet i just looking at my keyboard...
do not know wat shud i type...
wat is the best word to say n yet not hurting anyone....
i really do not know...
will this just be over just like this...
or it will be just rolling the snow...
making things worst still....
nvr ending kind?
or is it just tht simple....
"click"
everything just changed ....
n life still goes on?
none of this ending i pictured in my mind...
will be any good...
none of it.............
p/s: i also do not know wat i am writing.... so srry....guess i shud just go down n hav lunch with my parents.... just leaving this behind...
(Diana) <3
although i slept quite a number of hours...
it is still fresh in my mind...
but how much could i do to make things better....
i really do not know...
i just...........
haihz... forget bout it...
nth worth listening if everything is thought has alr been fixed....
its hard to change anything alr...
so many things to say....
n yet i just looking at my keyboard...
do not know wat shud i type...
wat is the best word to say n yet not hurting anyone....
i really do not know...
will this just be over just like this...
or it will be just rolling the snow...
making things worst still....
nvr ending kind?
or is it just tht simple....
"click"
everything just changed ....
n life still goes on?
none of this ending i pictured in my mind...
will be any good...
none of it.............
p/s: i also do not know wat i am writing.... so srry....guess i shud just go down n hav lunch with my parents.... just leaving this behind...
(Diana) <3
UPDATES for the week
There is just so much to write....
no internet connection in my hostel is just suffering...
really miss my bloggy a lot...
been missing it quite awhile...
just finished 2 midterm test today.....
came out to be just ok....
btw the tips for cb accurate.... but ob not at all.... haihz..
over ady....
so tht wan can forget bout it...
went to watch WANTED after exam...
its a great movie, luv it!
btw Angelina Jolie Just Hot n Sexy!
NOW back at home....
drank barley water prepared by my mum....
home always makes me feel comfortable...
is like everything is just prepared...
n u know u wont need to wrry bout food...
nth beats HOME SWEET HOME....
back in my room...
hearing wat i heard just now
dunno y...
now really feel....
no mood at all....
just wondering,..
did i do the rite thing...
but this step is really hard for me...
i took quite some time to decide it...
i do not know how much ppl will be involve in this thing...
n i do not wan to know the consequences...
actually i felt tht alr...
i alr knew ...
this wont keep long...
sooner or later...
it is just a matter of time...
i am just puzzle n confuse.....
i just hope nth of this brings an end to the friendship...
maybe not ending it...
it just changes the way u all treat me...
.....worried.....
i hate to be worried...
worry bout sth..
makes me old...
n yet...
my frens alr called me OLD woman...
add to my age...
haihz...
(Diana) <3
no internet connection in my hostel is just suffering...
really miss my bloggy a lot...
been missing it quite awhile...
just finished 2 midterm test today.....
came out to be just ok....
btw the tips for cb accurate.... but ob not at all.... haihz..
over ady....
so tht wan can forget bout it...
went to watch WANTED after exam...
its a great movie, luv it!
btw Angelina Jolie Just Hot n Sexy!
NOW back at home....
drank barley water prepared by my mum....
home always makes me feel comfortable...
is like everything is just prepared...
n u know u wont need to wrry bout food...
nth beats HOME SWEET HOME....
back in my room...
hearing wat i heard just now
dunno y...
now really feel....
no mood at all....
just wondering,..
did i do the rite thing...
but this step is really hard for me...
i took quite some time to decide it...
i do not know how much ppl will be involve in this thing...
n i do not wan to know the consequences...
actually i felt tht alr...
i alr knew ...
this wont keep long...
sooner or later...
it is just a matter of time...
i am just puzzle n confuse.....
i just hope nth of this brings an end to the friendship...
maybe not ending it...
it just changes the way u all treat me...
.....worried.....
i hate to be worried...
worry bout sth..
makes me old...
n yet...
my frens alr called me OLD woman...
add to my age...
haihz...
(Diana) <3
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Fragile As It Seems
Often love can be define in many various ways...
diff ppl hav diff perception towards LOVE...
but how many of them really und wat is LOVE all about?
i for one...
do not und wat is it....
n wont hav this chance any time soon...
but always...
curiosities strikes..
i will tend to wan to know more how is love like...
wat feel is tht?
haha
i hav this one fren...
he had been with this gurl fren tht i know...
they are in a very stable relationship...
but just now i just came to know...
they no longer together anymore...
reasons..
i not sure y...
but i feel if the feel is not there...
just being 2gether...
is pointless....
Just maintaining a relationship is not as easy as it seems...
just seeing my sis had made this far...
8 years...
8 years with the same very person...
there is just so much tolerance, patience, n feelings towards ea other..
tht will make this couple stay with each other forever..
recently when i went back to my house....
i see the way my parents communicate....
i just find it so sweet when even my mum was angry...
my dad can still use a soft way to make my mum laugh again...
when my mum say things sarcastically....
my dad will just a more sarcastic way...
this way made my mum laugh...
i nvr find out tht my dad know how to crack jokes...
but i just find it so enjoyable tht they both can tolerate each other just by using their "Special Ways" in communicating to each other...
The way their action tell me tht they will be just fine...
i will not need to wrry as i can see tht they both love each other very much...
is like a cycle again...
they went back to the time when they both start to date..
they do stuff like most couple do...
when i see them hold hands...
i just feel so sweet....
really love see this moment each time....
to me..
love can be fragile....
coz it all depends on whether we wan it to last or not...
it can change anytime anywhere
no matter how well u find ur relationship is....
but when ur partner say its over...
it is over...
just by one word...
or a single action...
love can no longer matters...
To those who had a partner... appreciate each n every moment... coz u nvr know will this relationship last foverer?? or maybe the very nx second or minute... it is over...
i say until like the person is dying... Life is fragile... Love is also fragile..
(Diana) <3
diff ppl hav diff perception towards LOVE...
but how many of them really und wat is LOVE all about?
i for one...
do not und wat is it....
n wont hav this chance any time soon...
but always...
curiosities strikes..
i will tend to wan to know more how is love like...
wat feel is tht?
haha
i hav this one fren...
he had been with this gurl fren tht i know...
they are in a very stable relationship...
but just now i just came to know...
they no longer together anymore...
reasons..
i not sure y...
but i feel if the feel is not there...
just being 2gether...
is pointless....
Just maintaining a relationship is not as easy as it seems...
just seeing my sis had made this far...
8 years...
8 years with the same very person...
there is just so much tolerance, patience, n feelings towards ea other..
tht will make this couple stay with each other forever..
recently when i went back to my house....
i see the way my parents communicate....
i just find it so sweet when even my mum was angry...
my dad can still use a soft way to make my mum laugh again...
when my mum say things sarcastically....
my dad will just a more sarcastic way...
this way made my mum laugh...
i nvr find out tht my dad know how to crack jokes...
but i just find it so enjoyable tht they both can tolerate each other just by using their "Special Ways" in communicating to each other...
The way their action tell me tht they will be just fine...
i will not need to wrry as i can see tht they both love each other very much...
is like a cycle again...
they went back to the time when they both start to date..
they do stuff like most couple do...
when i see them hold hands...
i just feel so sweet....
really love see this moment each time....
to me..
love can be fragile....
coz it all depends on whether we wan it to last or not...
it can change anytime anywhere
no matter how well u find ur relationship is....
but when ur partner say its over...
it is over...
just by one word...
or a single action...
love can no longer matters...
To those who had a partner... appreciate each n every moment... coz u nvr know will this relationship last foverer?? or maybe the very nx second or minute... it is over...
i say until like the person is dying... Life is fragile... Love is also fragile..
(Diana) <3
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