Rainy Rainy Day...

this few days...
keep raining....
makes my bed extra comfy....
so nice to Sleep!!!

since it is always raining...
this few days....
hav no where else to go...
but staying at home....
not tht i want or "Can" go out also...
coz need to study study study....

nth much can do...
but just occupy my time with notes...
n of course break time....
which is more than study time....
wat to do...
cant even really sit down n study without movies or songs beside me...
need this to like "accompany" me...

the line is tremendously slow....
dunno wat is wrg with Streamyx again....
this whole house only i am using the line....
n yet...
zzZZzz....
hate it...
especially i wan to watch it soon enough for my break time....
i mean downloading movies.....
i now watching “微笑pasta"
very nice leh...
i actually watching again!!
so sweet the both of them....

nth much to say alr.... haha i know this is crap post la... just bear with me la... =P

aloha!

(Diana) <3

~~!!Haunted!!~~

lolx....
today plan to go back sg long...
but with sudden changes....
i am back home now....

my fren's car seems to be "haunted"....
haha...
just weird...
drove to kl....
thn everything seems not rite...
air-cond, radio, the clock, battery got light, fuel down to negative, viper moving extremely slow, signal no light n the window cant wine down fast... all either moving slow or not moving at all....
y i say seems "haunted"...
coz we U-turn back to kepong..
n all this problems faded after we reached kepong...
everything back to normal....
@.@
so weird....
although it seems weird...
but i bet it has sth to do with the battery....
hahahha...
hope tht all this is just a false alarm...

but cant go back sg long...
cant collect my new hp...
n cant celebrate for angel....
haihz...
srry ya angel...
will make it up for u once i am back k....
hope u enjoy ur b'day today!!

now want to go Ikea...
lolx once back home...
go out somemore...
ahahhaha
not everything came out to be bad after all....
^^
better get ready for Ikea ady!!

toodles!!

(Diana) <3

Tmr will be a Better day

finally bought a new hp, which i will get it tmr!!!
hopefully it is in good hands....
if it is not taken care of....
i will hav to find the person in charge to pay for it....
hahahha...

just watch a SamPat series....
only 1st episode only....
omg!!
Taiwan series really.....
i watch alr also speechless...
it is so not logic & stupid....
but yet it is meant to be like tht....
so tht it will make ppl laugh...
funny is funny la...
but it is so exagerating.... =.=

guess it is time for me to study lo....
break time is over....
tmr going back sg long luuuuu.....

p/s: thx again joan!! i am fine k.... really really fine... =)

(Diana) <3

...Lonely....

Now is 3.00 in the morning....
wat acc me now...
is only my loyal laptop n my mp4....

not doing anything exactly...
notes in front of me...
but dun hav the urge to really read it....
leaving it there for now...
coz i know is pointless...
it just wont get into my brain....
forcing it ...
will just make it worst.....

haihz....
all this self-motivating...
really hard....
always always hard for me....
not until the fire reach my knees...
i wont even scared enough to run away frm the fire....
i know is a bad example...
cant think of a better one...

now everything so quite...
dun feel sleepy....
i just know i hav to study....
but it wont get into my brain....
also dunno how shud i do to make this happen.....
no one could help but myself....
tmr is alr sunday....
i mean today....
alr it is sunday....
time flies...
i am alr running out of time....

incomplete of everything....
i am so incomplete....
not even single thing is perfect...
nth gud...
maybe best result is above average....
not only results...
everything around me seems so incomplete....
frens, family, n me....
nth is complete...
felt so lonely.....
so pathetic....
i am just a appearance person huh...
inside is not gud at all....
such a failure i am....

(Diana) <3

Outing In 1U

yest get to gather with some of my frens....
went out the whole day....

we watch Wall-E....
a very Funny movie...
not bad...
go check it out...
but the part is...
packing with whole bunch of kids...
all taking their popcorns and soft drinks...
but luckily the cinema is dark...
no one will know we are out of the league...

later on....
went to sing our lungs out in NEWAY.....
sucks to the max....

first thing....
they are so strict in insisting student cards....

2nd thing...
they are so not "polite' at all....
da lah expensive....
service sucks!!...

third thing
didnt even bother to order the drinks for us...

fourth thing....
suddenly barge in at 6.00pm
together with the receipt...
n asked us to pay ...
without asking us we need to add on anything...

fifth thing....
it was so damn expensive!!!!
three of us...
we paid RM80.50
one is student price....
the rest normal price....

service charge (RM7.00)
until now i am thinking....
how can they charge this much...
when their service sucks...

the geram part is....
expensive nvm...service also bad until dunno how to describe....
pls la...
make until so nice...
but service so bad...
n yet charge so expensive....
who wan to go...
tht is a no no to me for a 2nd trip...
nvr going to step a foot in to this place anymore!!!
even i have the money...
i rather spend it some where else!!

other than this place..
this gathering...
turn out to be a happy day...

just tht back at home...
my dad...
start saying....
u prepare ady?
i see u like didnt do anything....
ZZzzz...
how many times i would hav to deal with this..???
cant u just trust me on this??
i am clear minded enough to know tht i could not gv myself a chance to screw this again....
but cant blame u....
u just wan to know i am good in handling this...

talk later...
need to catch up with my studies...
too-dles...

(Diana)<3

studying for the sake of exams

for me....
when i really study...
is just for the sake of exams...
who will actually study if we r not having exams?
majority wont even touch their notes....

now i do not hav the choice...
still left bout 2 wks...
final is so close...
my heart beating crazy....
starting to get nervous....
clock is ticking....
every minute every second just end without u knowing at all....

always last minute study....
haihz....
now piling up with all the notes 2sth in the morning....
but seems i am multitasking at the same time...
either watching prison break while studying
or
listening to music while studying...
n how the hell i am suppose to be concentrating...
guess i study now just for the sake of forgiving myself....
so tht i wont feel guilty....
but although all of tht....

wat i studying now...
i know wat i am reading...
tht is alr enough for me...
at least for now....
if my concentration is not there...
all this is just useless....

but this work for me....
hopefully this last....

to all my frens tht are having their finals... we work hard together k....
all the best!!

(Diana) <3

Can't Concentrate~~

haihz...
tried to study....
but just cant concentrate....
feel so sleepy...

so much to study...
start to scared....
my first paper will be my Failed paper...
wat if i cant make it?
i really scared....
i scare i read ady...
but n yet still do not know how to answer....
now everything is in case study....

getting tougher n tougher...
everything is bout memorising now...
the only thing i scared is....
i dun even know wat the question wants...
is like u study everything...
but u still do not know how to answer....

haihz.....
help help help.....

(Diana) <3

Hilarious Moment

Often when my sis came back...
we hav this small gathering...
no matter whether there is an occasion...
we would sit down, eat n chat all the way...
any topic will do...
politics, current issues...
anything at all...

the hilarious part is...
their family are like frens...
2 daughters n 1 son talk to their parents..
like frens...
can even scold them...
i mean in a jokingly manner...
lolx...
i think it is a matter on how u say it...
every parents do listen....
is whether u use the rite way...

not tht i dun do tht...
just tht not until the extend of theirs...
they can do it far more fun n funny...
dunno how to describe....

i dun talk much...
just enjoying the moment...
observing...
see n learn...
helping out....
tht is all i do...

dun even know wat am i typing...
=.="

(Diana) <3

Craziest Day

Yest nite... i mean this morning 3sth....
went to fetch my sis n her bf!!

haha....
pick them up....
thn we go cari makan..
alr say wan to eat supper...
its my sis bf's b'day....
at his request...
we went to eat Dim Sum 4o'clock in the morning!

haha...
but it is ok only....
thn back home...
surprises came....
but not for me...
n yet i am happy & dunno y so excited...
my parents bought presents both for my sis n her bf....
both is b'day present....
i pula tak sabar-sabar wan to know....
came out one watch for my sis n a wallet for her bf!!
Nice!

later on...
haven get to sleep yet...
as we r planning to catch the early market to get
Fresh Pork!
so we stay on...
watch some tv n olympic...
thn bout 5sth to 6 ...
we went out for the market....
luck is with us...
one of the Pork Stall was open....
One n only Stall was open...
we took some time to get the one we need...
n off we go....

back home...
dili deli awhile...
bout 6 sth ...
only we get some sleep..

tonite will be a long long nite 2....
looking forward to it !!

=)

(Diana) <3

Y Y Y? Y Now?

hate this feeling... hate it when it come back to me.. telling me tht i am diff frm others...
just saying this word... makes me... think bac of my Failure...
i am still enjoying Life... not doing anything...

y everyone verify? i didnt ?? wat am i doing?
y i did not attend the cls when i shud be?
y always hav this kind of things tht i shud know but came out i Do Not Know at all?
y i just being Ignorant?
not only this... but other things as well...
even my bro having his exam tmr...
i dun even know...
wat hav i been doing?
day dreaming?
sleeping, gaming?
wat the hell i go U for?
just to enjoy ?

y i even study for?
i just hate myself..............................

I Sucks!!! (to the max)

La~La~La~La~La~

hahaa....
i am just so happy now...
good mood good mood...

after cds meeting...
was really rushing for it...
eat until feel like vomit...
but the good thing is...
wuahaha....
i didnt pay for it...
its FREE!!!...
hopefully...
tht restaurant dun see my blog...
if not i shall nvr step in tht shop anymore....

besides tht
just after CDS meeting
finally sth is done...
at least for now...
we have plans...
tht shows...
this society is still functioning..
base on our schedule (draft) ....
it will be packed with workshops....
hopefully it goes well.... =)

3rd thing
i am happy coz....
my mum coming to fetch me home tmr!!
yippee!!
not tht she wont ...
is just tht i didnt expect she will say YES so easily...
n i as a very "Guai " daughter...
dun wan her to come all the way...
waste petrol plus waste toll money....
but she said YES
haha!!
got an urge saying out loud LUV U MUM !!
ahahhaha!!!

seems like i stay is a gud thing...
at least i am happy....
but later this...
i hav lots of notes need to copy...
n hav some CDS stuff to do..
guess my happy ends here...
ahaha...
i think it wont...
coz it is still here although i know i had a lot to do!!!
wuahahhaha!!!

to those who do not und my language...
nvm...
not important...
hahahah....

oh ya.. one more thing..
coz i am buying hp ady...
keep saying....
but i really wan to buy ady..

(Diana) <3

~~ Sick~~

Its been awhile since the last post...
nth much happening...
but yest...
dunno is the weather...
or is just me...
suddenly fever...

but now....
after my roomate....
took anything tht could keep me warm...
i woke up in midnight...
n feel better...
fast recovery...
lucky me...
if not later exam, cant concentrate...

okla...
guess i could watch some HK series...
download finish ady...
hehe

(Diana) <3

Nx week Schedule

Hav to start studying ady....
this weekend..
didnt study at all...
just arrange my notes....

hav all the time...
n yet....
no time for studies....

now still playing games...
zzZZzz....

my room is like in war....
notes everywhere....
but is just for decoration @.@
touch only...
but didnt get into my head.....

haihz...
hav to wake up early tmr....
guess better sleep early thn....
nites..

(Diana) <3

Randoms Of The Day

Had this English Presentation...
but not me presenting...
just going there....
n support them...
haha..

some pics to show....

The air-cond was cold...
so we excuse ourselves...
n bought milos!!




Joan, Wying & my cup... haha... the milo was hot and nice!! btw... we did throw it in the rubbish bin after tht... good citizens after all... haha

Mr. Lim... having his speech... on dunno wat title decided to video him as he keep repeating the same hand gestures (Mafakunyo gesture) lolx... btw Mafakunyo is ....a bad word though..... haha... means FCUk... lolx.. u know wat i mean rite..

zhiang zhiang!! joan!! haha.. dun angry ya... haha

kinda bored... so took some pics... haha... joan u r still cute de.. ^^

aiks.. video cant upload... dunno y... guess if kit & fu wan to see Mr. Lim's presentation... get frm me la.... haha... no choice...

still got 15 minutes... 08-08-2008 will passed.... Happy 08 08 08 ya!! the olympic ceremony is marvellous... they are so high tech.... grand and nice.. can see tht they put so much hard work in it.... congratz!!.... the fireworks really ausume... ^^

btw... getting my hp soon.... hehe....hope it is as good as it is....

(Diana) <3

It's a Circle

The saying goes ~~

Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a Mystery, But Today is a Gift. That is why it is called present.

Simple words... yet it is so so true...

It is like a circle. no matter how unlucky u r today... once it passes 12am... it is a history tht u shud forgo.... y keep bad memories with u...??

When u get this saying.... anything u encounter... u can easily let it go.... not holding it on too much tht make u tired n stress.... pointless.... making urself sad...

But somehow....
this yesterday thing...
although it is a history....
i just cant help thinking....
the words....
was so disrespectful...

i was just playing games...
this guy was asking where are we frm....
one of us answered him, i am from Indonesia...
his 1st response is....
Indonesians is the most horrible "creature" in this world!!
i was like...
duh...
if u feel like this...
dun go and say it all out loud..
n in front of tht person!!
so....
i kinda defend him...
his straight ask... r u frm Indonesia also...???
i say no...
n ended telling him where i am frm....
thn e say M'sia is slightly better than Indonesia only
those ppl there......
watever he said....
just pissed me off....
which i could not rmb now...
haha...
is a gud thing...to not rmb...

the war just started like tht....
he start saying things ...
discriminating M'sia...
this n tht....
saying like Sg is a very very "high-cls" place
we are low cls citizen...
he say he is the most eligible single bachelor...
n he is 30-31 years old....
he drives a convertible...
zzZZzz
he say all sorts of nonsense....
keep talking all the way...
just could not stand this kind of person...
thinking tht they are high n mighty...
we are just nth...
furthermore, say sth like my father touch me in the wrg places when i was young...
i was like....
wat is this topic leading to??
(pyscho!!)

yea...
i admit m'sia is not a well to do country...
compared to URS...
but wth...
i appreciate where i am born frm...
i do not need u to comment ....
respecting others 1st before saying anything at all...

but all in all...
we drag this so called "argument"
for as long as it can takes...
when finally he wanted to leave...
he ask for Forgiveness....
=.="
he say u can forget n forgive...
very easy only...
afer all he had said...
i dun think so.....zzZZ
n wanted to add me as fren...

anyway...
it ended ....
the so called " war"
so as i post this....
it ends as well....
as tmr will be a Gift...
y holding grudges on this kind of lame things...
especially with this kind of person....

just glad to release this out...
haha....
thx for listening...

(Diana) <3

Love U Mum

haha, back in sg long...
first thing first...
on my laptop...
haha

just ate my lunch....
made by my mum....
three dishes....
haihz..
i am just so lucky...
once wake up...
everything prepared for me to eat....
so good!!
haha....

mum really very understanding....
wont ask so much questions...
they just willing to put the trust on u...
less questions, more caring...

^^

(Diana) <3

Lazing Around

went shopping with my mum....
1st time ever encouraging mum to buy things...
she was happy though...
the money worth it la..
she bought a Titus watch...
very nice!!
maybe part of the reason...
if she dun like i can wear also...
haha...
=P

oh ya...
today is kit's b'day....
Happy Birthday!!
hope u enjoyed ur b'day...
didnt get to celebrate with u tim...
but anyways...
i am sure u hav fun singing k also....
haha
k la...

nth to say ady....
just so siensss.....

(Diana) <3

Nth Much To DO

back at home...
maybe environment too comfy...
brought back notes to read..
n yet...
cant even sit down n read it...

Laptop is so distracting...
as long as it is in font of me...
watever also cant be done...
i also dun hav self control lo...
just let it the way it is...
keep meddle with it...
Non-Stop!!
even it is alr time to sleep....

I am going to destroy my education man!!
aiks!!!

how la?
chuck the laptop??
cant do tht....
Off it n leave it aside??
not much self control tht i can tahan for long....
aiks....
no more option la....
maybe i shall just go somewhere which do not hav a laptop...
like Starbucks!!
provided i dun bring my laptop there.....
@.@

haihz...
Finals is coming soon...
n i haven STUDY yet!!!!

i dun wan to FAIL!!
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Hope this keeps playing in my mind, again n again!!

i also gv up on myself....

(Diana) <3

SUddeN LecTure

just came back frm a very long dinner

a dinner full of lecture
frm my dad...
i nvr ever been in a situation...
my dad sounded so WorrIed....
is like wat he is talking now...
worries him more than I do....

I.....
I am his daughter...
A 20 year old gurl....
i shud be independent...
all this worries shud not had happen....
how can i allow him to tell me....
when i shud hav do it alr...

wat he say...
not even a single thing is untrue...
i was really in honeymoon...
taking my own sweet time...
taking everything easily....
all this while i knew sth is wrg...
but i just choose not to faced it...
my results is all borderline...
its been 1 year alr....
1 year passes fast...
my results is getting worst n worst....

n yet i am still in my sweet dreams...
thinking tht all this will turn well....
thinking sth tht would not happen...

no wonder the whole day, my dad was like angry at me...
talking me in a way....
tht i can feel he is mad at me...
his tone somehow is slightly higher than usual...
looking me in a way tht he had sth to tell me....
all he wants is for me to BuCk Up..
no more coming home...
treating like it is holiday...
waking up late...

i will take it...
take all of ur words...
n wont let u down....
no more...
disappointment frm u....

thx for worrying... i shud hav know better... wat u said.... i will bear in mind.... as u said.... this is my future... u cant help me anything but keeping me in the rite direction... i was off direction.. way off frm it... i am so srry i made u worried.... i..... i..... i promise i will buck up... this is a promise not only to u.... but also to myself... i can guarantee tht ....thx dad.... .....

(Diana) <3

Question Marks????

often we had a lot of question marks in mind
y she or he do this this this???
y isnt he doing tht but this???
y he is acting like a maniac???
y the sales girl have such bad service???

WHY WHY WHY??

so much so tht
everyone come out with their perceptions
saying tht
they shall how how n how
how many ppl can actually dun talk at all???
how many ppl can just accept the way things are??
how many ppl can accept just the way who they are???

not many....
maybe 10person...
only 1 person will have this thinking...
i myself still try not to judge ppl by the cover
still saying things
judging ppl just by their action
this thinking is no good at all
placing ppl in the crimes they might not hav committed
is so worst tht
they do not deserve at all

think another way...
u might not think them in anyway...
accepting just by who they are...
but do they do the same thing to u??
do they stay out of the judging point...
giving u the space tht u feel is justice..
who will be this fair to u??
who will und u??

the worst part of it is being the MIDDLE person...
hated this feeling...
hated to be one of this person...
everything u have to keep in balance...
caring for both sides...
cant even help either one side..
keeping ur mouth shut...
to stay out of conflict...
suffering like hell..
n yet cant scream or sound it out to anyone...
still hav to put up the face...
keeping both sides calm...
*.*

every steps we take is just bringing us to who we are now, learning with each mistakes and try to conquer it is part of our process in life... n worst still... this is only the beginning of everything.. in working life... there is far worst situations u can get... it depends on individual luck .... wish everyone who might hav situations tht i said.... dun gv up... find ways to lessen the pain... if not avoid it in making things worst... i believe u all can find a way out of it... we will eventually do... either through force or naturally....

(Diana) <3

Puff Puff~~~

everything was in a rush for today...
going for cls...
going to see dsa officer...
going to see cds advisor....
coming back to my house...

rush rush rush~~~~

but finally back at home...
1st thing 1st..
go n kacau my mum who was sleeping...
haha
just telling her i am back home...
told her i am going to sleep...
n will see her for dinner...
haha

ended up woke up at 8.10pm....
@.@
slept too long ady...
but can automatically wake up...
it is a good record ady...

computer fixed ady...
line smooth so far...
browse through websites...
where can survey all phones...

so far...
two phones...
captured me...
sony ericsson c905 & samsung SGH-G800...
both also latest hp....
i will go more on samsung...
as sony is exp...
n the camera too high tech 8.1 megapixel...
too much to handle...
n pratically i dun need tht much 2..
better buy a digital camera....
much worthwhile...

guess this called it a day...

sayonara ^^

p/s: thx to those who had gave me some suggestions... coz i am hp clueless... haha XD

(Diana) <3