The "Space" For Me

Problems....
There are always one,
How we solve & face it,
is a matter of fact how much we want this thing to continue,
want a both side happy ending or just selfishly thinking of him or herself....
But this depends on how u think of it, nth is definitely right and wrong, tolerance and patience not many people can achieved in a balance....
Me too, is an ordinary person with different thinking with many of u, and i do hav my limits towards things tht i despise. By sharing my thoughts, it is a release for me to keep my life in a more positive way... Welcome everyone! =)

Friday, December 26, 2008

Late Christmas

every year and then...
i dun celebrate christmas nor do i hav any excitement over it...
but dunno y this year...
just seeing christmas tree or hat...
i told my mum i would wan one....

after this christmas...
new year is just around the corner....
thinking this whole year...
did i change myself to better and better??

the answer.... NO....
i am still my old self....
the old ugly, selfish, ignorant, straight, annoying, arrogant....
too much bad points....
nx year going to be 21 years old...
still didnt grow a bit....
being kiddy...
talk didnt use brain...
i could guess wat my dad would tell me when he gv me ang pau....
hav to study hard, 21 years old alr..
grown up alr... dun need daddy say... u shud know u hav much more to change....
haih...

so afraid to reached 21 years old...
meaning for me....
hav to act like an adult, think like one and do like one...
so much more to change...
but n yet not a single one had changed..
so stubborn and ignorant...
so good in complaining....
grrrr....
so mang myself....

aiks... 1sth alr...
Belated Merry Christmas wishes to all of u...
better stop before i continue emoing... hehe
good nite....

(Diana) <3

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

went to Ipoh to visit some of the cave...
saw this hibiscus in one of the cave called ji le dong...
i think in english it meant happy go lucky cave...
not sure whether did i translate correctly...
This is yellow colour...
very hard to see diff colours of hibiscus..
among all the colours i saw... white colour is my fav...
maybe becoz i like white...

i not sure wat colour is this...
a bit light... yellow and pink??
i think this is mix colour...
This is pink in colour...
cant get to see the orginal colour...
dunno missing where... maybe i missed it...
This is another cave called Perak Cave Temple
just by giving any amount of donation...
they will write for us our name on one of the roof as below...
This is written by one of my elder cousin....
me too did wrote one for myself...
but didnt get to take the pic as i forgot...
but good also coz my mandarin words... very ugly..
like small kid writing...
anyway, i wrote sth like this
学身平赵
业体安丽
进健快群
步康了上
(translation: excel in studies, healthy always, safe and happy, the last phrase is my name)

This is how it looks like inside the cave... those pointy rocks...

coincidentally, on tht day is dong zhi, means eating tong yuan...

get to pray is a gud thing also...see the trees grow on both side... if its at japan..where it is filled with "ying hua"... so beautiful..saw the four posing this way... i called them to each hug a tree..haha.... Last but not least... my christmas present frm my youngest cousin Amaris...

she was so nice.. asking me which thing tht i like the most when we are in the present shop...

i told her i like the mario... she really bought me one.. so sweet~~~

This trip i went to 4 places...

Penang, Taiping, Ipoh and Kampar....

Penang Food : wantan mee, curry mee, asam laksa, prawn mee, rojak, popiah (suggestion hav to find the rite store for the rite food as there are a lot of stall tht sell the same food but diff taste..., overall.... penang food is not a place where i could always eat as their food always the same over n over again without much choices for rice....)

Taiping : porridge, rojak, popiah, wantan mee, jawa mee, prawn mee (the porridge is nice, the rest so so... haha)

Ipoh : taugeh chicken(served with taugeh as a dish and white chicken, ipoh specialty), fish mee (yu mian), moon hor fun( an egg on top of the hor fun), white coffee, popiah, ipoh hor fun.. (suggestion shud eat the hor fun... coz it is very "hua" and nice... the moon hor fun can try!)

Kampar : wrap chicken, fishball noodle, char kuey teow, curry mee, lo mai fan(sticky rice with char siew and groundnuts on top, chee cheong fun and kopi o is ichi bang! (suggestion all also nice!! shud try everything! especially kopi o... i am not a fan of kopi but everytime i go kampar i will sure call there kopi coz is very nice!)

tht's all le, go try try...

so tiring to type this post... coz i hav to type twice.. my blogger got prob....haih

(Diana) <3

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

A Memorable Trip (part 1)

Has been missing lately...
went for a holiday trip in Penang with my cousins...
its been long since the last time we been able to spend some time together...

coincidentally, its one of my youngest cousin Amaris b'day
her 8th years old b'day...
becoz of this small little girl..
we bought her a big big cake from secret recipe (sugar-free)
*considering most adults tht cant take sugar

we wanted to suprise her by taking her to KFC
this KFC very special as it is in a banglo....
but unfortunately....
it close at 11.00pm...
one of the staff was so afraid tht we as the strangers....
keep standing outside will robbed them...
he keep showing signs tht they are closed...

haha, we just wanted to ask which nearest branch we could go instead...
my uncle so funny....
he do back the same sign...
telling him tht we know they are close...
ask him go back n sleep...
sambil say sambil do action...
LOL!! (@.@)

She was so excited...although we didnt manage to bring her to KFC
as we just went for swimming, steambath, sauna and table tennis...
all was hungry...
she actually was sleeping by the time we reached hotel...
but she was happy with all the presents..
she alr started to open her presents...
Luv U dear Amaris!
Happy 8th Birthday!
may u always be happy, pretty and cute always.. muacks!

Some sceneries tht i took along the trip....
This is at Taiping...
Taiping lake there... i love the way the trees grow...
nice scenery... felt so peaceful...
This is at Penang
The place called Kek Lok Si
the day was extremely sunny and hot...
and i forgot to bring my sunglasses...
n neither do i bring a cap...
but the scenery was beautiful~~~ worth it...
This is also one of the scenery from Kek Lok si...
From this trip....
i get to spend some quality time with my cousins...
besides tht... i ate a lot...
anything also eat...
1st time i went for a trip....
i eat this much...
penang is not the only place i went... i also went to Taiping, Ipoh and Kampar....
all are just nearby...

p/s: congratz to Soon Kee in her marriage on nx month, wish u and him loving and happy always! wish my cousins family- always be together, appreciate each other, all this is only a process...
(Diana) <3

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Quick Wishes to all of them~~

B'day cake but in christmas mood...


happy b'day Cill Yee!

Part of us... cooking potatos with cheese on top... yum~~
few sceneries tht i took in my frens place...
can view klcc, kl tower, genting frm her rooftop... which we had our bbq party there...
the moon tht day was beautiful... outshine the rest of the buildings..

2nd "so called" party which held at my house...
As u can see, it says for three person, han xing, siew ley and cjin....
Happy Birthday!

The three of them, praying???
actually they are doing tht to make their wish...
of course in a funny way...
but cjin seems not cooperative but posing in his own way... haha
Happy B'day u guys!
btw... u see the cards there....
they gamble all the way till midnight...
haha...
i lost RM15....sobss....
tmr will be a long long day for me.... going for a trip to Penang...
n till now... i am not sleeping yet....
yawn~~~~
guess hav to get some sleep....
nites guys...
(Diana) <3







Wednesday, December 17, 2008

a Double encounter with the tmnet guy

i keep having probs with my line recently...
making me no choice but to call up streamyx...

the 1st time, i made 4 to 5 calls...
they keep asking me the same question over n over again...
asking me my username...
asking me my name...
confirming my hp number...
thn keep asking me to make direct connection...
which i do not hav an idea how shud i do tht...
several attempts...
n still the prob haven solved...
i still cant access to internet...

i even called up my bro in sg...
asking him how to fix...
thn only i mistaken sth very important ....
my dsl light is not on....
which means is defintely not my prob but streamyx...
finally i get to call the technician to come fix...

they are very efficient...
he came n fix it rite the nx day morning...
which i am still asleep...
forced to go down...
once i on my lappie...
i cant on9...
is like sap sap sui...
once he is here...
everything fixed...

so he happily leave the house...
n i happily on9 without continuing my sleep...
later noon bout 3-4sth....
again i could not access....
zzz
this time i am frustrated...
i made a call in the evening...
just waiting to talk to tht fellow really took ages...
the most babi thing is...
they ask me to hold n dun hang up...
say wan to check system....
thn after bout 10min...
another new person attended me n say will call a technician come tmr...
zzz...
shudden had let me wait when the only thing is asking him to come tmr...
by midnight....
i tried to restart the modem...
suddenly the dsl light is stable...
n my prob solved...
i waited till bout 3am in the morning...
i made a call back to streamyx telling them i cancel the report....
luckily thing this tmnet guy being responsible...
called up again this morning to double confirmed my prob has been solved or not..
ok ....

y i am blahing this...
me typing also felt bored...
haha..
yawn yawn~~
k dun wan to talk bout tht....
my point is...
the line cause me a waste of energy and time...
but it is worth the trouble..
at least in the end i learn more on how to handle the wiring n stuff....
which i hav no clue earlier on..


last but not least...
i could not resist my pet pet...
so adorable....
hahah
kawaii~~~

(Diana) <3

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

wat is the meaning behind writing??

to me writing is much more easier than talking...
especially when it requires looking into other person face...
n spilled it all out...

i rmbered long time ago....
which is like dunno how many years ago....
i had this fight with my mum...
we had this misunderstanding...
which i dun rmb....
i cant sleep...
keep thinking y this happen....
n was angry i could not be able to explain to my mum wat i feel...
especially when i could not bring myself to start a conversation....

i sat down n wrote this long long letter...
i rmbered crying when i wrote it...
writing so fast until i spill watever i wanted on tht piece of paper...
i went out frm my room...
n slip it under my parents door...
praying tht everything will be alrite by tmr morning...
i finally fell asleep...

the nx morning....
heavy footsteps brought me down the stairs...
took a deep breath....
i saw my mum in the hall...
she did not say a word bout the letter...
but told me to change n brought me to Sogo...
the trip to there....
no one said a word...
just listening to the radio...
we reached...
my mum took me to hav lunch n we talk a little...
but nth bout the letter...
but her eyes...
keep looking at me...
as if wanted to know my thoughts by just looking at me...

we spend the day by eating n shopping...
which my mum brought me clothes n can say watever i wan...
days goes by without mentioning bout the letter anymore....
thn one day...
we had this fight...
n suddenly my mum brought this up...
she angrily told me off...
tht i could not communicate with her...
as i rather put it into words than rather talking to her in person....

i was speechless until i did not fight back...
did not defend myself...
i just let this go.....
leave this misunderstanding...
always...
when we thought the person tht understand u the most...
will always know wat u r thinking...
we do not need to talk much...
we will know wat they wan or need...
but in this case...
i and my mum do not hav this chemistry between us....
we often are blinded with things tht kept ur arguing for petty little things...

now i am alr in this age...
thinking back all this...
my non explanation kept a wall between us...
making both of us not understanding each other....

haih....
i just feel tht i dun wan to keep explaining each n every action i make...
like my mum ...
i 2 dun und her well...
n keep misunderstood her action...
which makes her all grumpy n frustrated...
n same here as well...
but we do hav times when we really had fun....
maybe this is a way for us to keep communicate...
even it means arguing....
better than not talking rite?
haha...

btw did i say i felt writing is easier than talking?
haha...
actually for now...
is base on wat kind of situation
in certain situation...
i would choose to face to face conversation...
in this way i could easily tell is tht person sad, angry, frust or happy??
like in msn...
i often hard to trust watever they wrote or watever they say...
did they plan or did they think for quite some time only type it out...
i mean they will hav the time to think more...
but in person it would be pure quick response....

(Diana) <3

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Complain is just my another nature....

Y I hav been complaining a lot?
Complaining in too many things tht make me num….
n make u readers num as well….
Hearing me complaining this n tht….
Maybe I am closed up in my this comfy and safe place…
not exposing myself too much on the outside world…

as in I would not get the chance to really go out with frens…
or getting involved in any of those activities….
Frenless ppl like me will just hav to stay home n grumble…..
facing all walls…
Wat more can I say but complaining….

Furthermore, all my siblings are not around….
I am left alone with my mum all day long….
N without knowing wat to say ….
Or maybe there is nth so much to say or made it into conversation….
Tht is y…
Without communication… conflict arises like a spark of fire…
suddenly appear in no where…
n u do not hav the warning signal….
Telling u tht danger is coming….

See… I am complaining yet again…..
wat more else I could do…..
I really do not know….
Haih… this will be a “long long” holiday

n btw...
it is freaking early for me to blog this....
this is the 1st time awaking in this early hours....
and actually posting sth...
and when i am actually very tired after my bbq nite with frens...
guess my alert mind wants my tired body to do sth...

(Diana) <3

Thursday, December 11, 2008

My so called "break time"....

This is the games i played lately....
its from facebook...

First one, Geo Challenge
This is to guess the flags for each country
Geo Challenge


2nd game... also frm facebook..
is PET SOCIETY...
haha, kinda crazy bout this lately..
keep visiting my pet...
This is my pet... so innocent looking, haha my frens say it look like a pig coz of the pig nose...


This is my house for my pet, Christmas is around the corner, decorate a bit for christmas celebration ^^

We can visit each other tht had by hugging, fighting, kissing, tell jokes, dance, and dance with the radio.. one of my fren's house

Go try out this 2 games, ^^
(Diana) <3

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Flash Back~~

Suddenly flash back...
remembered the last sem when i was disturbed by a msg....

i took a look...
my fren told me to view my results....
at tht time, i told myself not to think anything but just view it....
bad or worse i will just have to deal with it....

scrolling down to view it is such a pain where i experience when i 1st failed my paper...
where the stupid failed paper is at the end of every subj...
this time...
i do not slowly scroll down...
but view it full .....
POP~~
i was like stunt.....

n keep yapping n yelling....
jumping around...
my mum frm downstairs heard me screaming...
call out to me....
i open my door and yell to my mum tht i pass all my papers....
i heard tht my parents was relieved...
coz their worst fear is i will hav to go Kampar if i failed....
of course is my worst fear 2....

even after days, weeks after my final results was out....
i still could not believe it...
i keep going back to the website n rechecked my results...
fear tht it might appeared diferently....
or somehow i just read it wrgly...

tmr is my fifth time having finals....
again this rountine goes...
where i sit for this exam...
feel anxiety bout the results...
or maybe alr start to worried or crying after tmr's paper....
Who Knows??

there is just so much tht we cant predict...
i was so sure tht i will failed my paper...
i told all my frens n my parents...
telling them i know i failed...
i know i did...
but wat is the point bragging tht i definitely will fail?
making me emotionally break down...??
n in return i get a B for my resit paper...
thinking too much is a very bad thing to do...

enough for the recap of last sem...
guess is best i prepare myself ready for wat is up for me now...

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE =)

(Diana) <3

Friday, December 5, 2008

Bad News~~~

just received bad news frm ade tht ....
crm coursework for my cls very low....
as low as 12 marks over 40 marks....
which means whoever who gets 12 marks ...
did not pass the coursework marks....

this is really bad news....
how come so damn low..???
everytime my cls like asked tutor again n again....
we crowded her....
asked her....
she say it depends on how u write...
but maybe the nx time u see her....
she will specifically say i wan this this this....
ended up....
not much really did wat she wans...

dahlah she so strict....
and this is the only subj in this sem tht counts in gpa....
which means we either pass or fail...
tht's it....
aiks~~~

this is really wake up call...
not to slack alr...
if my group is the unlucky one...
meaning...
i hav to put extra work alr....
tough tough tough~~~

btw thx ade for the news....
hopefully bing bing will send to us our marks....

(Diana) <3