Rainy Day~

Its pouring outside~~

the wind blows in through the kitchen into the living hall~
felt so safe to be at home~

Rain rain rain~
is like washes away the dirt~
washes the sins or memories~
giving us peace~

breezy~~
love this feeling~

(Diana) <3

still cant stop thinking~

One year passes very fast~

Been in working life, wat did i actually learnt?

I am not really sure, like wasted time and money~
Knowledge, not a lot has been added..

Now jumping out from the circle of comfort~
only know that it is not that easy...
searching needs a lot of patience and time...
everyday spending time to see and look~

still cant face the pass~
hard to face the rest~
is sth tht bothered me all this while~

felt so uncomfortable~
making ppl feel sth i am not~
did not get them rite~
haih~
running away makes this consequences~

since when i am like tht~
so scared to face it,
acting it is fine, it is ok~
but nvr actually rectified it...
it stays like tht~

who to speak to~
when myself do not know~

time flies day by day~
no objective no plans~
but waiting...
waiting sth to appear~

no longer had the courage to stepped out again~

(Diana) <3

~true picture~

i always thought i am rite..

feeling so happy each time i was honoured with sth..
sth i have which someone wont hav..

are they wrong?
or i am just too naive to just listen and follow?

i always take things too simply..
too simple, did not really go through my head..
as i felt believing and trust a person is more than enough..
details is sth tht we do not need to go through..

but i am wrong..
so wrong tht i did not realise..

they are the one in the bright side..
i am like a bunny...
used by them..
as they are smarter and wiser..
knowing so well the calculation is on their side...

which in the end, i am not getting benifted at all..

is always this case...
always look ppl from the bright side..
this is my nature..
i dun see ppl frm the bad side..
i dun used to...
as i am who i am..

tht is y..
i am getting a punishment..
a wake up call..
to stop dreaming..
and be firm..
be calculative..

i dun do so..
i dun asked for..
nobody will care wat i am getting..
life is as real as it is...
now i get my cousin once said..
"Welcome to the reality world"

as true as it seems..

(Diana) <3

wat is it?

when during U life,
at this time..
a lot of frens will be still bz either on9,
chatting on msn, fb-ing, watching movies or even playing games..

now at this time..
late midnight,
everyone is alr in their dreams..
sleeping all the way...

my this job..
had given me a lot of flexibility...
the only thing better than the rest..
for now..

my coach once told me..
asking me to take some time..
wat also dun think..
just imagine my future...

imagine wat i would wan in my life...
until now...
i did not do so..
as i do not wan to face it...
fear tht the end result..
is sth tht i do not wan it to happen..
alr it is the fact..

a lot of times..
i ask...
ask is it a lot of ppl tht is same as me?

being so undecisive...

hmmmm...
alr out of topic..
not sure how to continue..
i am still the old self..

(Diana) <3

is it the way it shud be?

just read through Jing Yi's blog..
as she had mentioned,
we as bloggers had long abandoned our bloggy
after working life mode is on...

am i really that bz??

the answer is Yes and No...

y Yes?
bz conquering challenges in new working life..

y No?
not being productive in the process of tackling my
obstacles, so most of the time is actually passing time
and actually wasting my own time...

A lot of ppl who know me..
shud know wat is my profession rite now...
to those who do not know..

my current job is Real Estate Negotiator..

to those who do not know my job scope,
simple way to explain is...
i can find you a place to stay, no matter is landed house or condo,
for sale or for rent is my duty...
i can worked for owner, buyer and tenant...

how to work for owner?
- help owner to sell or rent out their properties
how to work for buyer?
- help them to find the suitable house or condo for own stay
how to work for tenant?
- help them to find the suitable house or condo for rental

Being so green and naive...
i went in to this industry without a second thought...
without doubting that i might not be able to handle this...
seeing tht i had back up from my family...

i fail..
fail very badly...
after so many months..
i am still who i am the day i first join this company...
my old self..

so lost of direction..
so not motivated..
this week itself..
i even had the intention to quit and leave...

but can i?
can i just leave as i am so incompetent to do this job?
honestly i do hav a choice..
we always hav a choice in life...
but i rethink wat i had gone through...

flash back again...
did i actually made the effort to really do this??

the answer is a big NO...
i did not..
i really did not..

after all this months...wasting all the time..
wasting all the money...
i am practically waiting sth to happen..
waiting sth to dropped upon me..
and not making sth to happen...

i know my flaws..
my mistakes..
and yet i sat on it..
waiting somehow it will sail smoothly for me...

why the hell did i actually step into this industry
if i had such attitude!!
i would not even survive the slightest..
waiting ppl to spoon feed..
waiting ppl to push only move...
i am so reactive in things..
not sharp..
not even bright alr...

is time to change...
time to wake up and start to realise...

.......

(Diana) <3

Simple Touch

just reading through blogs tht i had long abandoned~
everyone seems to be in the working stage...

not much update on work
but more on personal stuff as usual

sudden urge to just drop a few words
to my little blog

latest recent happenings

- my goal has not reached
- pingu just left the country for further studies
- hanging out with same old frens frm Uni life (a great thing and much appreciated)
- life move on as normally as it always had
- getting better and better each day
- learning each and everyday
- meeting different class of people weekly
- been very focused in what i wan to do
- pimples growing (very bad thing tht i dislike!)
- as usual still Fat!
- cut my hair and comment is look like egyptian (due to not dyeing my hair)
- playing Baking Life in fb
- have plans maybe to consider Blackberry or iPhone4 (only consideration)

lots lots more..
but this is all i remembered

Yawns,
my few words become long winded countless words

need to warmed up my bed for now
Take Care guys, working life isnt easy at all which nothing is really easy~

(Diana) <3

almost 3 months

been in this industry almost 3 months alr..
the 3 months is coming very very soon....

is a very scary picture....
do not know wat is lying ahead...
will i pull it through?
a lot of question mark?

only thing is i have to make this happen..
how can i achieve this??
i have to really work hard on it...

ppl often say it is a career or a job to them..
but for me..
it is always a business..
not a job...
everything is up to me...

if i fail,
the only person to blame..
is myself...

have to really buck up..

(Diana) <3