Just a "Thought" of Mind

After all this weeks....
frm foundation till now..
do not know no more...
all this will lead to where..
will this fren be with u...
after my U life...

are they just here becoz they hav to be...
or they can vanish and disappear...
anytime anywhere...
hearing ppl say they had prob....
either...
friendship, relationship...
all this...
y is it so....

when it meant to happen...
it will...
sometimes...
i also do not know how to say....
those frens....
not one can be trusted....
not one sincerely treat u....
they even use u...
just for the time being...
after tht...
u r nth to them....
NTH at all...

they really need u...
they will all sorts to make u happy....
but after tht...
wat the crap are u to them?
i hated this kind of ppl!!
HATED so much....
i feel i am being used...
after tht...
they will treat me like rubbish ....
when they see me...
maybe they say hi...
but behind me...
will start a conversation on me...
saying me THis and THat...

wat for hav frens like this...
always wont know wat they think...
u look at them...
u can feel they had sth....
sth tht is hid frm u...
u look at theirs eyes n facial expression...
obviously...
showing tht there is sth tht they are not happy....
but still they are making this face...
saying tht they are ok...
nth is wrg....

just continue...
once sth happen...
they will start bursting out to u...
telling u...
u r this this this...
u cant do this this this...
funny huh....
this kind of situation....
i believe no one like it...
neither do i.....

having a fren tht is simple minded...
for me...
i feel is the best..
as in they wont ask for more..
just can share things...
just frens tht treat u well...
n u treat them well in return...
tht is enough for me...
but this kind of fren..

do they really exist...
now frens are no longer frens tht..
just has simple mind as i feel they should...
they will ask for more...
feeling u should give more...
share more..
all this things tht they ask....
u might not wan to give or share..
especially frens....
they will comment u....
talk behind ur backs....
saying things....

but wat to do...
who will hav te courage to say all out...
tht meant to be said...
the consequences is too big to sacrifice....
how many ppl will und tht u r doing this...
for their own good??
how many of them know how much courage u took to say it all out?
how many of them will und ur feeling?
how many of them will openly accept their mistakes?
thinking of this...
will u take this step...??
most of them take this step...
when they are force to....
who will wan this to happen...
no one...

just making frens...
need so much knowledge and patience...
n this is only part of our life....
there is so much more after we r out of U life...
hopefully all this...
wont happen too many times...
coz i really could not take it....
there is just so much to think...
so much to be consider...


(Diana) <3