...Lonely....

Now is 3.00 in the morning....
wat acc me now...
is only my loyal laptop n my mp4....

not doing anything exactly...
notes in front of me...
but dun hav the urge to really read it....
leaving it there for now...
coz i know is pointless...
it just wont get into my brain....
forcing it ...
will just make it worst.....

haihz....
all this self-motivating...
really hard....
always always hard for me....
not until the fire reach my knees...
i wont even scared enough to run away frm the fire....
i know is a bad example...
cant think of a better one...

now everything so quite...
dun feel sleepy....
i just know i hav to study....
but it wont get into my brain....
also dunno how shud i do to make this happen.....
no one could help but myself....
tmr is alr sunday....
i mean today....
alr it is sunday....
time flies...
i am alr running out of time....

incomplete of everything....
i am so incomplete....
not even single thing is perfect...
nth gud...
maybe best result is above average....
not only results...
everything around me seems so incomplete....
frens, family, n me....
nth is complete...
felt so lonely.....
so pathetic....
i am just a appearance person huh...
inside is not gud at all....
such a failure i am....

(Diana) <3