Late Christmas

every year and then...
i dun celebrate christmas nor do i hav any excitement over it...
but dunno y this year...
just seeing christmas tree or hat...
i told my mum i would wan one....

after this christmas...
new year is just around the corner....
thinking this whole year...
did i change myself to better and better??

the answer.... NO....
i am still my old self....
the old ugly, selfish, ignorant, straight, annoying, arrogant....
too much bad points....
nx year going to be 21 years old...
still didnt grow a bit....
being kiddy...
talk didnt use brain...
i could guess wat my dad would tell me when he gv me ang pau....
hav to study hard, 21 years old alr..
grown up alr... dun need daddy say... u shud know u hav much more to change....
haih...

so afraid to reached 21 years old...
meaning for me....
hav to act like an adult, think like one and do like one...
so much more to change...
but n yet not a single one had changed..
so stubborn and ignorant...
so good in complaining....
grrrr....
so mang myself....

aiks... 1sth alr...
Belated Merry Christmas wishes to all of u...
better stop before i continue emoing... hehe
good nite....

(Diana) <3