wat is the meaning behind writing??

to me writing is much more easier than talking...
especially when it requires looking into other person face...
n spilled it all out...

i rmbered long time ago....
which is like dunno how many years ago....
i had this fight with my mum...
we had this misunderstanding...
which i dun rmb....
i cant sleep...
keep thinking y this happen....
n was angry i could not be able to explain to my mum wat i feel...
especially when i could not bring myself to start a conversation....

i sat down n wrote this long long letter...
i rmbered crying when i wrote it...
writing so fast until i spill watever i wanted on tht piece of paper...
i went out frm my room...
n slip it under my parents door...
praying tht everything will be alrite by tmr morning...
i finally fell asleep...

the nx morning....
heavy footsteps brought me down the stairs...
took a deep breath....
i saw my mum in the hall...
she did not say a word bout the letter...
but told me to change n brought me to Sogo...
the trip to there....
no one said a word...
just listening to the radio...
we reached...
my mum took me to hav lunch n we talk a little...
but nth bout the letter...
but her eyes...
keep looking at me...
as if wanted to know my thoughts by just looking at me...

we spend the day by eating n shopping...
which my mum brought me clothes n can say watever i wan...
days goes by without mentioning bout the letter anymore....
thn one day...
we had this fight...
n suddenly my mum brought this up...
she angrily told me off...
tht i could not communicate with her...
as i rather put it into words than rather talking to her in person....

i was speechless until i did not fight back...
did not defend myself...
i just let this go.....
leave this misunderstanding...
always...
when we thought the person tht understand u the most...
will always know wat u r thinking...
we do not need to talk much...
we will know wat they wan or need...
but in this case...
i and my mum do not hav this chemistry between us....
we often are blinded with things tht kept ur arguing for petty little things...

now i am alr in this age...
thinking back all this...
my non explanation kept a wall between us...
making both of us not understanding each other....

haih....
i just feel tht i dun wan to keep explaining each n every action i make...
like my mum ...
i 2 dun und her well...
n keep misunderstood her action...
which makes her all grumpy n frustrated...
n same here as well...
but we do hav times when we really had fun....
maybe this is a way for us to keep communicate...
even it means arguing....
better than not talking rite?
haha...

btw did i say i felt writing is easier than talking?
haha...
actually for now...
is base on wat kind of situation
in certain situation...
i would choose to face to face conversation...
in this way i could easily tell is tht person sad, angry, frust or happy??
like in msn...
i often hard to trust watever they wrote or watever they say...
did they plan or did they think for quite some time only type it out...
i mean they will hav the time to think more...
but in person it would be pure quick response....

(Diana) <3