i thought i can do this alone...

thinking too naive...

taking things so simple and easy...

now stress was building up each day..
this stress is wat i am giving myself each day...

each day passes very quickly..
no target, no strategy...
i am so lost..
do not really know wat is ahead of me..
wat could possibly happen??

i cant even predict...
not even estimate...
can only just do as best as i could..

this road is not easy...
flexible as it is...
giving all the time...
i could manage it however i wan..
tht is the only best thing in this path..
wat more else it is tht great?

i hav to constantly remind myself..
i can do this..
i can do this..
i hav to be different..
diff frm others..
tht is y i hav to put a lot more effort than others...
tht is y i choose this...

regret??
not until this extend...

but i know i am very frustrated..
lost of direction..
a lot of times..
when i am driving alone to the office..
i often felt out of air when i reached the traffic light...
like no motivation...
dunno to feel eager or not to be in the office..

coz practically u cant hope much although u r in office..
unless u r prepared with questions...
if not u are all alone..
alone winning this...
is really a very tough thing...
for a person like me..
no experience at all...
no network...
i wonder again...
wat is it tht really drives me into this industry...

am i in the rite track??

i am alr shaky with this thought...

who will und me???
anyone???
haih....

(Diana) <3