Thinking a lot

been thinking a lot lately...
mostly becoz of the career i am heading to...

although i told myself a lot of time,
i can do this, i can i can i can..
but there is always a small voice..
holding me back...

giving me all sorts of reasons..
telling me tht somehow this might not be the right path i am heading to...

i rmb i post my status in fb recently..
"is there really a future?? hav to try only know..."
yea, a lot of things..
ppl tell u frm A to Z...
but if u dun try...
u will nvr really experienced it..

as the saying goes..
saying is easier than doing...
we can exaggerate talk until the world will grow diamonds..
but in the end..
if we dun put effort, dun do it..
it is back to zero...
nth will be gud for u...

there is always a risk...
every job has risk i shud say...
maybe mine is much more than others..
maybe this is a sign ..
tht i shud be diff...
if u wan to succeed...
u hav to do it differently...
not same as majority of ur peers..

but at least u did try before...

eager to learn more...
but at the same time hav fear...
afraid of gaps...
afraid ppl's point of view...
but...
as in this stage...
this is where we will face this..
"welcome to the reality world"

it is as reality as it is!
although it will be tough in the beginning!
as my motto, believe in urself!
i shall hav to trust my instinct, n hopefully i will get a gud outcome out of it!!

so much of support to myself, but very fast this support wont last long,
i will cont my thinking self again in no time..
but i am a girl....
girl thinks a lot of rubbish...
keep the brain working..
woo~ la~ la~
screw it!!
i will just go for it!!!!!!!!!!!

need support support!!!

(Diana) <3