Make This Happen!

just came back frm SG,
sending my bro back...

initially,
i was very reluctant to follow them..
as..
somehow,
i know they will discuss bout my career..
i dun wan to feel the pressure..
i dun wan to be confronted..
tht is y,
i am running frm it...
avoiding to go down..
as i dun wan anything to make me hav doubt or in dilemma..

but i am not successful..
ended up in SG...

i was rite,
they did brought up this issue...
telling me...
asking me..
questioning me..
laying out all the factors..
wat am i going to face..
wat do i need to be in this industry..

in this conversation,
i get so frustrated...
i told them to stop condemning me,
i wan their support, not telling me tht there is other option out there..

i admit,
i actually really did nth,
did nth in the sense in finding a job...
even having my resume done..
i was "bz"
bz with my holiday trips..
not doing anything for my career..
i was landed with this job..
through a bit of pushing frm my dad..
as i did not had a plan..
the only plan in my head is "i wan to go down to SG to work"
tht's all...

but no matter how,
no matter wat they say..
i know very clearly wat i am doing!

i am young, i believe i can do this!
although i know it will be very very hard!
but u dun try, u nvr know..
yes, we hav to thk in a wider area...
not secluded into one area..
but for now,
this is wat i have opted for..
i will just go with my instinct, my heart..

although say it so nicely,
but i always still keep haih all the way...
just letting it out..
as the pressure is there..
which is given by myself, not by others..
i often just yell when i am in the car waiting for the green light when on the way to the office..
sometimes doubting myself on the way..
just need a continuous support and brainwashed myself tht i can do this~~

but this is just me..
i do hope my peers, my ji mui men 2J 3W, has a nice career!!
no fan nao is the best...
but is ok to hav one,
as we still had each other for encouragement...
missing u guys a lot~~
we shud meet soon~

nites guys~
luv u all very muchy!!

(Diana) <3

Thinking a lot

been thinking a lot lately...
mostly becoz of the career i am heading to...

although i told myself a lot of time,
i can do this, i can i can i can..
but there is always a small voice..
holding me back...

giving me all sorts of reasons..
telling me tht somehow this might not be the right path i am heading to...

i rmb i post my status in fb recently..
"is there really a future?? hav to try only know..."
yea, a lot of things..
ppl tell u frm A to Z...
but if u dun try...
u will nvr really experienced it..

as the saying goes..
saying is easier than doing...
we can exaggerate talk until the world will grow diamonds..
but in the end..
if we dun put effort, dun do it..
it is back to zero...
nth will be gud for u...

there is always a risk...
every job has risk i shud say...
maybe mine is much more than others..
maybe this is a sign ..
tht i shud be diff...
if u wan to succeed...
u hav to do it differently...
not same as majority of ur peers..

but at least u did try before...

eager to learn more...
but at the same time hav fear...
afraid of gaps...
afraid ppl's point of view...
but...
as in this stage...
this is where we will face this..
"welcome to the reality world"

it is as reality as it is!
although it will be tough in the beginning!
as my motto, believe in urself!
i shall hav to trust my instinct, n hopefully i will get a gud outcome out of it!!

so much of support to myself, but very fast this support wont last long,
i will cont my thinking self again in no time..
but i am a girl....
girl thinks a lot of rubbish...
keep the brain working..
woo~ la~ la~
screw it!!
i will just go for it!!!!!!!!!!!

need support support!!!

(Diana) <3