Misinterpretation

i hav no thought of my future..
no direction at all...

earlier i always wanted to be in sg...
as my siblings was there..
i can say hav a place to stay..
do not need to wrry bout accomodation...

i keep telling myself, my work will be there...

thn one day when i am down in sg...
suddenly a news strike...
telling me tht a place wasnt there anymore..
i thought i was no longer welcomed...
but tht time...
i still thought of other alternative...
asking around frens tht might wan to together rent a room...
at least i am not alone...

i didnt know my thinking was wrg..
wat lead me to thk any of this...

but now..
after the talking session..
i came to know tht..
is it not a place tht is the priority...
is the country where i wan to start from...
where i would like to start from?
i told her, i wan to start frm SG all the while..
but once i heard tht i no longer had a place to stay...

i totally gv up on tht thought...
she was pissed off..
saying me being silly...
thinking the wrg direction....
as i could so easily simply abandoned my future...
wat i really want..
all this while i knew SG is a much better option...
but the rental was really high...

but come to savings..
SG really could save more better than here...

haih..
although now i know i am actually welcomed...
but still...
i dun wan to thk any of it yet..
not until i end my finals..
haih either option, i still dunno wat can i do..
wat post to head to..

everyone seems to hav their own plan ahead...
i hav no clue at all..
some even secured themselves with a job..
n even a car...
haih...

dunno dunno dunno..
hope i can cont dunno...

(Diana) <3