blur.. so blur...

yest was just another normal day...
back at sg long home...
everyone does their own thing...


my housemates always will be in the hall...
all hav their lappys on the table...
although we r really "close" to each other..
meaning sitting really close to each other...
but we only talk when a question is asked..
or sth interesting tht a particualr person is watching..
we might group around n watch together..

sometimes somebody will start a topic tht is interesting..
the rest tht has the same interest will join in the conversation..
this routine is happening each day...
always the same..
nth much difference...

when it comes to dinner...
although we r a "family" here..
we go seperate ways...
all hav their own date or partner to eat with...
when there is some program on...
like movie or karaoke..
all hav their certain group of frens to mix with...

although we do much of the things independently with our diff frens...
but somehow..
it is a fade tht bring us together in living under one roof..

very fast...
another few more wks...
this so called a home place...
will be left with no one...
no more laughter, noise, chattering....
everything will be left like no one had stayed here before...

so fast everything happens...

yet now so afraid to lose everything now...
the freedom here...
the much freedom tht watever u do...
is on ur own time..
on ur own space...

besides freedom...
is the companion of frens..
no matter clsmates or housemates..
we will soon one day part our own ways...
walk diff paths..
go to diff countries...
maybe some proceed to diff Uni..
further their studies..
sooner or later...
the working life starts...

but my mind is blank..
blank with wat i wan..
i knew i wan to work..
n is a must to work...
but i do not know where shud i start...
resume??
career day didnt even bother to asked around...

although it seems ignorant...
is just dunno where to start..
wat shud i do 1st..
no one is directing me...
but just asking wat is my plan???
i am still a blur....

(Diana) <3