Worried

dunno y...
just feel so uneven...
i felt so insecure...

keep thinking...
thinking n thinking...
maybe becoz my 1st two paper did not go well...
not even well at all...

i am so worried of the consequences..
i keep telling myself..
not to gv up until the end..
but still cant help but thinking again...
now i reading the notes i do...

reading only...
but mind is somewhere else...
anything tht my parents mentioned bout my exams...
holidays..
holidays tht they had plan...
asking when i am going to start U...
how long is my break...
how is my timetable nx sem...
all this.
etc etc etc...

make me think of...
i dun even dare to mentioned it...

tmr is Mother's day...
as in now alr mother's day...
i do not even prepared anything as i always do...
dun even had the mood...
although i alr hav the papers n stuff to make at least a card...
now it is just laying around on my table...
with unfinished wording..

although...
i will hav my last paper...
n thn...
it will be all back to me again...
this is the worst part of me...
being so paranoid...
but just could not helped it....
how to not think of it????
especially i will have plenty of time to do so....

will just try to eat the notes...
n pray tht this paper went smoothly...
the rest...
i could not do much also...
but could think much only....

haih~~

(Diana) <3