"Friends"

i believe everyone hav diff characteristic of frens...
some might be quite, some might be crazy, loud n noisy...

when u r in this group,
everything u do with them...
u r part of them...
when maybe one day...
or u no longer mingle with them....
maybe is holiday...
or just plainly u dun keep in touch...
they will soon forgot u even exist....
they will not even rmb ur existence...

when suddenly one day...
u reappear...
u will just feel...
somehow u r not fit in to this circle of frens anymore...
u r like an additional person...
meaning u r here or not...
it doesnt matter...
better still u r not around...

or if....
ur reappearance could actually help...
ur circle of frens...
they will sort of 'welcome" u back...
by listening to ur ideas...
such a reality world..

when u could entertained them...
maybe gv them laughthers or fun...
u r part of them....
when u dun keep in touch...
it is like u r no longer part of them...
as it is like u had certified urself ...
not belonging with them ....

or another way...
although u might not be part of them...
but u r still usable...
they will used u...
to get watever they need....
when they had reaches wat they get...
u r just a piece of garbage...
not important...
left at one side...
n again be forgotten...

but true also...
who will bother to talk to u..
if u do not hv wat they want...
say in a nice way..
it is helping each other..
say it in a bad way...
like once my fren said...
frens is to be used and allow ppl to used...
利用in mandarin....

cruel yet...
it is the reality....
take it n live with it...
(but i believe... somewhere around... there is always true friends...)

(Diana) <3

~`~Finals~`~

everyone seems preparing for finals alr...
my housemate had started weeks before ...
for me....

aiks~~
the usual last minute...
brought back all the notes...
but didnt even touched it yet...

not dun wan to touch also..
really no time...
as my siblings was back for this weekend...
they just went home just now...

misses them alr....
was gud to hav them back...
although is for a short while...
more laughters...
just simply luv the atmosphere...
haih...
but happy moments always last for a short time....
they just back and now they are away....

notes notes notes~~
haven even touched u yet...
nor hav the mood to.....
but...
hav to force myself to...
as it is tough...
especially MRIP...

`when it comes to finals, it puts an end to a semester, there goes a cycle of everything again`

(Diana) <3

A story which reflects real life~

Once,
there is a newly wed couple,
one day...
the husband said to his wife : i am leaving to find a living until i could afford to provide a comfortable life to you... in condition, u hav to be loyal to me and i will be loyal to you...

this husband found a job where he tell his employer:
please let me work as long as possible, when i want to leave, please let me go and give me money that i had earned...

after 20 years,
this man tell his boss, i want to go home...
his boss replied : i will do as wat we had promised or will give you 3 advice but you wont get ur money...
after the man think for 2 days, he told his boss he want the advice...

thn the boss tell him 3 advice :

1st advice : always rmb not to use a short cut, a short cut and unfamiliar road will cause you ur life...

2nd advice :always rmb not to be curious with things that might turn out bad as it will cause you ur life...

3rd advice : always rmb not to make decision when you are frustrated and wanted to take revenge as u will regret for the rest of ur life..

The end of the story is...
the boss gave the man 3 breads, two to eat on the way home and one for his wife...

so he took off...
on the way, he met a guy who asked him to follow him for a short ut back to home...
after thinking of his boss advice, he decided to used back the normal way...

when he took a rest in a hotel, he heard a loud scream....
but again rmb his boss advice, he went back to sleep...
the next day...
while having a cup of coffee,
the owner asked him did he heard any noise yesterday...
he say he did...
the owner cont to asked: aren't you curious?
he replied , i am not curious...
the owner only inform tht he is the first customer whom are alive walking out frm this hotel as the owner's son had crazy sicknesswhom killed all the customers yesterday..

thn this man cont his journey back home..
when he reached his home...
frm outside, he saw his wife...
on her laid a man...
she was brushing his hair..
the man was heart broken and wanted to killed his wife tht instant...
but after recalling his boss advice..
he just walked pass and will just see her later n tell her tht until now he is still loyal to her...
when he see her...
she was so happy and rushed to hugged him...
the man told her that he is still loyal to her, and she also replied the same...
but he cont to say u had betrayed me...
thn his wife explained, the man was his son...
his 20 year old son .....

A lot of things isnt wat it seems, sometimes it is wat u want it to be....
try looking from another point of view...
try to at least put others in ur shoes...
maybe u will know or maybe could understand...
tht actually they hav their reasons also...
or maybe gv a chance to other to at least explain....
it is not always wat it look like...
n bear in mind tht...
a person might change when time passes...
do not set in ur mind tht they are forever tht way...
they might alr changed
or might alr making effort to changed...
we shud gv them chance to change....
and not setting them as always the bad person...

(Diana) <3

``Black Butterfly``

hmm..
how to start...
today when i woke up...
my mum was sleeping in the hall...

suddenly my cousins came...
as it is tomb-sweeping day..
they came to pick up my mum to pray my passed away grandma...
while opening the door...
a big and dark black butterfly...
came in fluttering its wings....
the first thought it came to me...
is...
had my grandma came?

i dunno much bout a black butterfly...
dun really know wat is the meaning of one either...
but i heard before...
it is the soul from the death...

mum n me prepared...
thn we left the house...
my mum even on the air-cond..
where the butterfly settle itself...
just under the air-cond....

on the way to my grandma place...
me n mum look at each other..
i knew we are thinking the same thing...

when we are home...
the black butterfly was still there...
the same spot...
cmfortably at the same spot...
we opened the door..
seeing whether it will leave the house...
it stayed there...
even until now...

i guess...
it is my grandma..
coming back to a place she finds comfortable...

i was curious is my statement true...
whether is it a soul from the death...
practically from other cultures...
it came out tht there is different perspectives....

this is some i look through from the internet...

First of all the butterfly symbolizes new life from and old one. Seeing that the color black is a strong yet subtle color, the black butterfly symbolizes the new strong but subtle life after a period of transformation. In some cultures the butterfly is also considered to bring luck
The butterfly exists in four distinct forms. Some consider that so do we: The fertilized egg is planted in our mother's womb. From our day of birth we are like the caterpillar which can only eat and creep along. At death we are like the dormant pupa in its chrysalis. After that, our consciousness emerges from the cast off body, and some see in this the emergence of the butterfly. Therefore, the butterfly is symbolic of rebirth after death.

There is a Native American legend that says, " If you have a secret wish, capture a butterfly and whisper your wish to it. Since butterflies cannot speak, your secret is ever safe in their keeping. Release the butterfly, and it will carry your wish to the Great Spirit, who alone knows the thoughts of butterflies. By setting the butterfly free, you are helping to restore the balance of nature, and your wish will surely be granted."

The butterfly is a reminder to make changes when the opportunity arises. Change and transformation are inevitable for us all, but it does not have to be traumatic. Butterfly symbolism is also closely tied to the idea of spirits and souls. It has been used in many religions and cultures. In the western world, the symbol of the butterfly stands for freedom, fun and joyous times. It is also symbolises a state of naturalness and purity.

The butterfly symbolises the metamorphosis through life, from infancy to old age. White butterflies represent rebirth and renewal, black butterflies represent death though not necessarily an ending.

In Ireland, it was believed that black butterflies were the souls of the dead, who were forced to wander the earth because they couldn't find their way to the Afterlife.

There is so many different views from the internet...
maybe i just stick to my thinking...
as it is not often to see butterfly nowadays...
not even a small one i shud say...
a big and black butterfly...
it shud meant sth...
or wat u guys think?
wat it meant?

btw i did capture the black butterfly...
did anyone of u seen this kind of butterfly?
I think i see it somewhere... maybe in the museum i guess... LOL... i not sure.. maybe somewhere in my dreams....

Btw, i miss my pet... cant play...

haih... line is bad.. cant get in... miss miss miss~~

till thn...

nites~~

(Diana) <3

A trip to Jusco

actually been reluctant...
thinking whether wan to go home or not...
but in the end i did make the rite choice...

once back home...
straight took the car key ...
n drove mum n i to Jusco...
as it is Jusco Member Card Day....
jam n no parking is alr predictable...
imagine ppl actually take leave to go this places....
one example is frm my cousin whom really did took leave for this...

so....
drive drive drive....
finally reach the parking lot...
but do not know wat kind of route they had planned...
just one round, lead to the exit which hav to go all the way down to the exit...which came up just like 1minute ago...
zzzz...
took all the trouble to make a U-turn n come in to the car park again..
making sure not to take the same route which leads to the exit...

searching parking space is a task...
my mum was so excited....
how to say...
cant wait to just rush in n buy stuff??

the scenario is we following ppl whom came out to get their car....
we saw this lady with her children...
so we follow follow...
but suddenly dunno y missed her..
my mum was so "excited"
she like practically screaming alr....
telling me to see properly...
n blaming me not following closely....
the most extreme part is....
asking me to let her down....
so tht she could go n find the lady...
aiks~~
but due to her hard "effort"...
although didnt manage to find the lady...
we manage to find a parking space soon enough...

after getting a parking space...
i was like looking at my mum....
not in an angry way....
i just felt funny....
was smiling all the way....
my mum even covered her face, knowing tht she gone way out of hand...
losing herself with just shopping spree....

once the lift open....
humans...
everywhere is pack with humans..
i told my mum, ur heaven....
the entire time i was with her...
i kept smiling...
my mum ask me y...
i just answered her....
i wonder will i be like u when i am at ur age??

LOL....
really wonder...
all the ppl around me....
all having trolleys pack with stuff....
n worst still the Happy Hours they hav....
lol....
pack with ppl....
n Jusco no longer like Jusco...
they are like Pasar Malam shouting on top of their voice...
n some even had the speaker thingy...
ask the customers to come n buy....
the sight really makes me dizzy...

n to make things worst....
with all this constant moving with ppl...
my mum lost her hp...
which was no where to be found....
just bad luck....
suddenly gone missing...
but alr lucky...
lucky it is not purse tht was stolen....
at least the hp is not tht expensive also...
but the wasted thing is there is RM50 Jusco voucher in it....
sigh~~~

Lesson 1: dun be too excited until u left ur belongings neglected... (especially do not hang it on the trolley where ur bag is easily exposed)

Lesson 2: dun think ur hp isnt expensive, no one will want to take.... days are bad, watever also they would want to take...

Lesson 3: best not to take bags to these places where they had sales n pack with ppl... is alr a hassle to take care of the things u need to buy...plus another bag, is easy to neglect especially if it is small.. u wont really notice with all the crowds...

haih...

(Diana) <3

Close Ur Eyes, and everything will be Forgotten````

If things could be this simple...
just by closing ur eyes..
watever u r worrying will not matter at all...

If things could be this simple....
i wish it could happen rite now...
the laughters, pet society and even movies i luv...
could not really bring back the happy mood...

although still feel moody...
but i believe it is just sth i haven figure out rite now...
dun wan to mention, dun wan to even think...
let it be....
just thinking in the wrong direction....
is time to wake up....
like rite now~~

haih....
still not really over it yet...
better get some study done~~

(Diana) <3

I dunno Y anymore.....

i do not want to know...
do not want to even look...

let it be....
is always been like tht....

makes me sick....
wat for?

(Diana) <3