what lies in the future ahead?

alr am not gud in studies..

wat more future i would hav after i graduate?

my studies..
come to realise..
i did not really take it seriously...

not serious enough...
for me to really really work hard..
make sure i am fully fully prepared all the time...

although i did really tried my best...
but always..
something, somehow...
will happen...
n take away watever i had planned...
watever i had strive for...

i am a very stubborn person...
not really gud in handling emotions...
especially when i am angry...
i will often scare ppl away...

just now i was just playing wat my birth date meant..
n i find it accurately said..

it says..
yes, i am hardworking n good in studies..
but when i got a degree or sth...
i will not be employed..
or might just do an ordinary job..
but the gud thing is..
i will take care of my family n frens well...

poof...
my future was just hazy enough...
now i really felt...
wat lies ahead...
was not only blurry...
but i do not hav a direction or dreams..
is really marketing my choice??
i not really sure rite now..

going to sg??
am i capable??
too many question marks...
n i do not know the answers to any of them...

(Diana) <3