wat is it?

when during U life,
at this time..
a lot of frens will be still bz either on9,
chatting on msn, fb-ing, watching movies or even playing games..

now at this time..
late midnight,
everyone is alr in their dreams..
sleeping all the way...

my this job..
had given me a lot of flexibility...
the only thing better than the rest..
for now..

my coach once told me..
asking me to take some time..
wat also dun think..
just imagine my future...

imagine wat i would wan in my life...
until now...
i did not do so..
as i do not wan to face it...
fear tht the end result..
is sth tht i do not wan it to happen..
alr it is the fact..

a lot of times..
i ask...
ask is it a lot of ppl tht is same as me?

being so undecisive...

hmmmm...
alr out of topic..
not sure how to continue..
i am still the old self..

(Diana) <3

is it the way it shud be?

just read through Jing Yi's blog..
as she had mentioned,
we as bloggers had long abandoned our bloggy
after working life mode is on...

am i really that bz??

the answer is Yes and No...

y Yes?
bz conquering challenges in new working life..

y No?
not being productive in the process of tackling my
obstacles, so most of the time is actually passing time
and actually wasting my own time...

A lot of ppl who know me..
shud know wat is my profession rite now...
to those who do not know..

my current job is Real Estate Negotiator..

to those who do not know my job scope,
simple way to explain is...
i can find you a place to stay, no matter is landed house or condo,
for sale or for rent is my duty...
i can worked for owner, buyer and tenant...

how to work for owner?
- help owner to sell or rent out their properties
how to work for buyer?
- help them to find the suitable house or condo for own stay
how to work for tenant?
- help them to find the suitable house or condo for rental

Being so green and naive...
i went in to this industry without a second thought...
without doubting that i might not be able to handle this...
seeing tht i had back up from my family...

i fail..
fail very badly...
after so many months..
i am still who i am the day i first join this company...
my old self..

so lost of direction..
so not motivated..
this week itself..
i even had the intention to quit and leave...

but can i?
can i just leave as i am so incompetent to do this job?
honestly i do hav a choice..
we always hav a choice in life...
but i rethink wat i had gone through...

flash back again...
did i actually made the effort to really do this??

the answer is a big NO...
i did not..
i really did not..

after all this months...wasting all the time..
wasting all the money...
i am practically waiting sth to happen..
waiting sth to dropped upon me..
and not making sth to happen...

i know my flaws..
my mistakes..
and yet i sat on it..
waiting somehow it will sail smoothly for me...

why the hell did i actually step into this industry
if i had such attitude!!
i would not even survive the slightest..
waiting ppl to spoon feed..
waiting ppl to push only move...
i am so reactive in things..
not sharp..
not even bright alr...

is time to change...
time to wake up and start to realise...

.......

(Diana) <3

Simple Touch

just reading through blogs tht i had long abandoned~
everyone seems to be in the working stage...

not much update on work
but more on personal stuff as usual

sudden urge to just drop a few words
to my little blog

latest recent happenings

- my goal has not reached
- pingu just left the country for further studies
- hanging out with same old frens frm Uni life (a great thing and much appreciated)
- life move on as normally as it always had
- getting better and better each day
- learning each and everyday
- meeting different class of people weekly
- been very focused in what i wan to do
- pimples growing (very bad thing tht i dislike!)
- as usual still Fat!
- cut my hair and comment is look like egyptian (due to not dyeing my hair)
- playing Baking Life in fb
- have plans maybe to consider Blackberry or iPhone4 (only consideration)

lots lots more..
but this is all i remembered

Yawns,
my few words become long winded countless words

need to warmed up my bed for now
Take Care guys, working life isnt easy at all which nothing is really easy~

(Diana) <3

almost 3 months

been in this industry almost 3 months alr..
the 3 months is coming very very soon....

is a very scary picture....
do not know wat is lying ahead...
will i pull it through?
a lot of question mark?

only thing is i have to make this happen..
how can i achieve this??
i have to really work hard on it...

ppl often say it is a career or a job to them..
but for me..
it is always a business..
not a job...
everything is up to me...

if i fail,
the only person to blame..
is myself...

have to really buck up..

(Diana) <3

my path

i have been in this industry for one month plus..

still hav so much things to learn,
can say..
i still a lot of question in mind tht are not answered...

for those who do not know wat i am doing rite now..
i am a real estate negotiator..
some might feel new to this title..
as the norm is property agent...

y my company practice this title instead..
is actually very simple..
as an agent...
agent is the one tht holds the license to open a company,
for a negotiator..
is a position between buyer and seller...
where we act on behalf our owner to negotiate with the seller...
we r the middle person...

to those who thks tht this line is an easy job...
is totally not as it seems frm the cover...
a lot of hard work hav to be done..
at the same time,
u hav to hav an amount of funds to keep ur business running...

this industry is called a business..
is not an employment..
i dun hav a boss..
i hav no one to answer to...
watever i do, i say...
i answer to myself..
meaning if i do not hav any sales..
it is all my fault...

so stressful...
everything seems hard...
especially when u see ur colleagues getting a lot of calls frm buyers..
doing viewing, making appointment..

but complaint wont help much..
only will help u release stress....

still a long way more to go....
anyone wans to buy or rent property???
haih...

(Diana) <3

Love and Care

a lot of times..
when we hear things tht are very true..

we often choose to ignore it..
and we try to deny it..
dun wan to listen...
as it is the fact...

often if we dun open our mouth to start to communicate..
90% of the time..
we often hav misunderstanding frm each other..
we will be doubting y he/she thks like tht..
y did he/ she say sth like tht??

Why Why Why??

tht is y communication is very important..
if we nvr share, we nvr talked...

who in the world will know wat u r thinking???

coz they are not u...
they can only assume..
worrying..
doubting..
maybe she/he is like tht...
maybe she/he is not in a good mood..

all this assumption and misunderstand will accumulate..
making things worst...
making two individuals more far apart..
a lot of grey area tht could not be explained..

everyday..
i learnt a lot of things..
we actually will nvr stopped learning...
we are always blessed if we r lucky to meet someone..
tht willing to teach us or maybe better phrased is share with us their experience..

from other ppl experience,
we can be more careful..
more cautious...
dun need to bang wall so often..
tht is y..
the phrase goes, we need family while at home, we need frens when we r out from home..

this is very true..
human cant manage to survive alone..
they need love and care to keep them moving..

i am very blessed..
as i hav wonderful frens, family and everything...
i really appreciate it!
thank you guys..
luv u lots

pls do take care~

(Diana) <3

*Appreciate*

now i am appreciating all i hav...
my family, my frens, my work..
my life...

i am counting my blessings..

now i like my job,
i hav the chance to gather with my frens..
gossip and shopping..
had the support frm my parents..
staying at home with my parents...

all this small little things..
is wat i hav got now...
appreciate wat i hav rite now...
appreciate every single moment of it...

is a gud thing to hav all of u...
u know who u are...

Luv Luv Luv..

=)

(Diana) <3