is it the way it shud be?

just read through Jing Yi's blog..
as she had mentioned,
we as bloggers had long abandoned our bloggy
after working life mode is on...

am i really that bz??

the answer is Yes and No...

y Yes?
bz conquering challenges in new working life..

y No?
not being productive in the process of tackling my
obstacles, so most of the time is actually passing time
and actually wasting my own time...

A lot of ppl who know me..
shud know wat is my profession rite now...
to those who do not know..

my current job is Real Estate Negotiator..

to those who do not know my job scope,
simple way to explain is...
i can find you a place to stay, no matter is landed house or condo,
for sale or for rent is my duty...
i can worked for owner, buyer and tenant...

how to work for owner?
- help owner to sell or rent out their properties
how to work for buyer?
- help them to find the suitable house or condo for own stay
how to work for tenant?
- help them to find the suitable house or condo for rental

Being so green and naive...
i went in to this industry without a second thought...
without doubting that i might not be able to handle this...
seeing tht i had back up from my family...

i fail..
fail very badly...
after so many months..
i am still who i am the day i first join this company...
my old self..

so lost of direction..
so not motivated..
this week itself..
i even had the intention to quit and leave...

but can i?
can i just leave as i am so incompetent to do this job?
honestly i do hav a choice..
we always hav a choice in life...
but i rethink wat i had gone through...

flash back again...
did i actually made the effort to really do this??

the answer is a big NO...
i did not..
i really did not..

after all this months...wasting all the time..
wasting all the money...
i am practically waiting sth to happen..
waiting sth to dropped upon me..
and not making sth to happen...

i know my flaws..
my mistakes..
and yet i sat on it..
waiting somehow it will sail smoothly for me...

why the hell did i actually step into this industry
if i had such attitude!!
i would not even survive the slightest..
waiting ppl to spoon feed..
waiting ppl to push only move...
i am so reactive in things..
not sharp..
not even bright alr...

is time to change...
time to wake up and start to realise...

.......

(Diana) <3